Jab Bana Uska Hi Bana ~ AVNEIL

Part Fourteen

Neil's POV-

It had been exactly 7 days and 3 hours since I had last heard Avni speak, the doctors told me that when she woke up there was a possibility that she could not have any of her recent memories, I could have my wife become a stranger once again and it killed me, I couldn't lose her, not again.

She had purple bruising under her eyes and around her nose, her bottom lip was cut and swollen, her right shoulder was dislocated and her stomach had a bullet wound, her arms were covered in bruises that were shaped like fingers and her ribs were cracked, the doctors worried the trauma would be too much, that Avni's brain development would be delayed and she may return to a time of safety, possibly meaning my wife could act like a child

I heard a pained moan from her bed, rushing over I went to hold her hand then pulled away, I didnt want to scare her like last time, going to get a doctor as fast as I could, I waited outside for her to be checked up, my heart racing to finally hear her angelic voice once again

The doctor stepped outside, "She's awake, but be aware, she may dip in and out of consciousness and we aren't yet aware of how her brain has reacted to this"

I nodded vehemently, walking in I noted the pipe down her throat had been removed, she smiled at me, that had to be good, that had to mean she remembered something at the very least. Avni wriggled her fingers then outstretched her hand, I held it to my lips and closed my eyes, her raspy voice shook me out of the trance she so easily put me in

"Water"

My eyes burnt with tears at how much pain she had to have been in. I passed her some water, tipping it slowly into her mouth, then wiping any water drops, she smiled greatfully

"Are you a doctor" she gulped painfully, her eyes teary

I stepped back, she had forgotten me again, shaking my head I turned on my heel, I couldn't be here, it was like living in the past and never having moved forward, it was a vicious cycle and a nightmare I never seemed to wake from

"Neil" she called out, making me turn back around. She held her throat "I mean are you my doctor now"

Walking forward I kissed her forehead "I thought you forgot"

"Dont be silly" she whispered, nuzzling her face into my hand "Tell me honestly, how bad do I look" her eyes lit with humour, only my Avni could find something funny in a time like this, she really was the strongest woman I knew

"You still look beautiful to me"

"You're so cheesy" she laughed, then coughed though the smile remained and her eyes still shone with tears

"Im sorry I wasnt there, I am meant to keep you safe and I cant even do that"

She reached out tugging me closer, she rested my head on her chest and stroked my hair "Its not your job to protect me and I put up quite a fight myself"

Pulling back, I sat down, holding her hand
"You are the strongest woman I know and I am so proud of you, you have to know that"

She squeezed my hand in response, then sighed and closed her eyes

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Avni's POV-

It was the day before I was allowed to go home, Neil hadnt left my side the entire time but I could see in his eyes the blame he held for himself. Neil walked out of the bathroom, I put my hand up, sitting up straighter I turned the television up

"Tum paas aaye yoon muskaraye, tumne na jaane kya sapne dikhaye, tum paas aaye yoon muskaraye, tumne na jaane kya sapne dikhaye, ab to mera dil jaage na sota hai, kya karoon haye kuchh kuchh hota hai, kya karoon haye kuchh kuchh hota hai" I sang along with the tv.

Neil smiled lovingly at me, "Dont exert your voice to much"

I waved him away, "I'm fine honestly". I wanted him to believe I was okay and I was, I was lucky to get away from Rajesh and didnt want to think about that time in my life anymore, I wasn't sure why Neil blamed himself so much, life was full of events that we could not change, I moved over allowing Neil to sit in bed with me

I leant against him, allowing him to encase me within his hold, turning slightly I inhaled, taking in his scent, how much I had missed being so close to Neil, I felt drops on my hair and I pulled back "Neil" I muttered, wiping his tears

His voice cracked "I thought I lost you, I hate myself for not being there, I". He let out a shaky sob and squeezed his eyes shut

"You got to me in the end Neil, please dont feel bad, I love you and thats enough for me, this was not your fault, you have to believe me" I didnt know what to do, my heart broke as he let out another guttural sob and looked away "Its their fault, not yours, you wont lose me Neil, you cant get rid of me now" I hoped to lighten the mood but he just shook his head "Please Neil, it hurts"

He pulled back "ill get the doctor"

"No, it hurts to see you hurt, please dont beat yourself up about this, please Neil"

He nodded, wiped my tears and pulled me to him, but I knew deep down he would never see this the way I did

So I would love him, if he couldnt love himself, I would love him enough for the both of us I just hoped it would in time make him see the wonderful man I saw. "Hey Neil"

"Yes"

"Can I meet your family"

His eyes gleamed with warmth at the mention of his family "Of course"

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