my story

part four

Okay before I start this paragraph here is a song from one of my favourite artists/youtuber.

POV: Rachel

"Rach! Rach! Rachellll!!!" i hear him screaming from the other side of the door. don't think anything wrong, i just locked him out because he called me a hoe...

"Rachel, come on you know i was just joking. i'm just as much a hoe as you are!!!" he screams, again, through the door.

i decide to let hem in and let him 'explain' himself, obviously i know he was kidding but i wanna mess with him a little. after i unlocked and opened the door he began with his excuses.

"Rach, i'm sorry. i was just joking. you know that right. if one of us is a hoe its me, we both know that. please, my young lady, grant me your forgiveness." i can't hold it anymore, i start laughing very hard. tears come out my eyes and Jay looks baffled at me.

"i was just kidding too, you dumbass." i say still laughing at my little prank. Jay looks relieved.

"you bitch, i knew you were the worst!" he tries to sound angry but it doesn't seem to work.

after a while i was getting tired, Jay saw it and convinced me somehow to go lie down for a moment. i suddenly didn't feel well and puked all over my bed, Jay brought me to his room to sleep there.

i woke up in a forest, i started to look around. i was scared as hell, why the fuck would i be in a forest?! it doesn't make sense. it feels like i'm not alone. "fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck!" i curse in myself. what the hell am i gonna do now?! i'm starting to have a panic attack, no! no, i'm not going to have a panic attack. not now i'm all alone and in the forest. there is no time for that now. i try to control my breathing pattern. it works a little, but now that i'm only focused on my breathing i didn't notice that the wind was raging around me, as if it was trying to protect me from something. but when i lift my head up, my eyes lock with his.

"NO! FUCK NO! THIS IS NOT HAPPENING" i screamed to him. why is he here, WHY IN ALL OF THE PEOPLE DOES HE NEED TO BE HERE?!

"i'm sorry for what i did, honey, please forgive me?! please, babygirl, i can not live without you!" he says with tears rolling down his cheeks.

"NO! NO! YOU DON'T GET TO DO THIS. HELL NO YOU DON'T GET TO ACT ALL MISERABLE, WHILE YOU WERE THE ONE HURTING ME! YOU HEAR ME?! I WAS THE ONE HURTING AND YOU WERE STANDING THERE. YOU DIDN'T DO ANYTHING. I TOLD YOU EVERYTHING AND I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING. SO YOU DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT TO FUCKING ASK ME FOR FORGIVENESS. HECK NO I'LL NEVER FORGIVE YOU AND DON'T YOU DARE SHOWING UP TO ME SAYING YOU'RE SORRY 'CAUSE YOU'RE NOT! YOU HEAR ME?! THE NEXT TIME I SEE YOU I'M GONNA KILL YOU I MEAN IT!!!" i screamed his way, i couldn't hold it in any longer. he has hurt me for so long. i can't ever forgive him, i-i just can't. i fall down my knees crying, finally crying about everything he has done and about every little thing that has hurt me in the past. i feel a little flame of rage within me, that rage seemed to give me enough energy to get up and let a strange force tearing a three from the ground and throw it his way. i walk up to him and look him straight in the eye when i see my own reflection in his crying eyes, my eyes are blood red. no, this isn't possible. i slowly bring my hand to my face to touch the skin right under my eyes.

and that was the moment i woke up.

i shot up and let out a little scream. i see Jay rushing up to me and caress my cheeks. i gave him a small smile and again layed down quietly.

"Thanks for being here Jay, really it means a lot to me." i said with a broken voice. i slowly fall asleep again.

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school started, i hear that horrible and unmissed bell go off.

Jay is standing in my room, trying to get me out of my bed, which wasn't working very well, for him at least,

"fuck off, fuck school! i'm not going!" i said to Jay, whom is Still trying to get me out of my bed.

"if you're not going, i'm not going either! i can't handle a first day of school without my best friend and you know it!" he said angrily.

"fine that's settled, we're not going to school!" i grin, i finally get my way. Jay is almost as stubborn as me, i didn't know that was possible. jay let himself fall, dramatically, on my bed.

" move bitch." he said while making a hand gesture to me to move. i laughed and moved a little bit, while Jay laid down next to me under the blanket. i shot him a grin of victory and he laughed a bit. after that little scene we just put up, i fell asleep next to my best friend.

after a couple more hours of sleep, i woke up because that whore Jay was moving way to much. i gave him a little push, causing him to fall out of my bed. i couldn't help but laugh. jay got up and looked at me with a wide and fake smile. fuck, what did i do?! i'm stupid, of course he is going to get back at me. if it isn't now it'll come and it'll be horrible. i guess he saw my face expression, because he started laughing and jumped on me. with one leg at bot of my sides he leans a little forwards.

"oh oh, rach, that wasn't a smart move, was it?" he asked with an evil smile plastered on his face. fuck is the only word i can think of.

"no it wasn't, but i'd do it an hundred times again." i replied. and at the last word of my sentence he starts tickling me.

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Hi guys,
So my first authors note, I know probably none of you will read this, but I'm still improving my writing and English. If you find a grammar mistake or such, tell me please and new ideas are welcome!
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