not equal parts [s.m]

Car Rides

Song highlights from the drive: Everytime & Breathin - Ariana Grande
In My Blood & Lost In Japan - Shawn Mendes
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"Sophia, what's wrong?" April whispers as she strides towards me, a look of deep concern in her eyes.
"I-I was explaining everything to him & telling him how we made me feel. I was ranting so much that I didn't notice he had disappeared. He left April. He didn't even give me a chance to say how I felt" I said with the occasional shaky deep breath and tear.
"Oh my God. Where did he go? Did you see where he went?!" she grumbled as she lifted to her to look out of the entrance door. Slightly leaving my side.
"Probably to his car. I know he's a douche bag but I don't want to go chasing after him. Can you just take me home?" I say with a tired smile.
"Of course. Oh, wait...give me a sec." she to herself more than me. She turned around and missed steps as she jogged up the stairs towards the spa.
"Oh, oh okay" I mumble as she disappeared.
"at least you told me you were going" I whispered looking down, as I spun around on my heel waiting for April to come back down.

Briskly she came back down the stairs, stuffing things into her bag that I couldn't see. She used her smile to tell me she's saving whatever it is for later, you learn things like that's when you're best friends for over 5 years. I turned myself around at that point to go back in through the counter doors to lock up. The last thing either of us wants is a break in and someone taking all the money.

"Ready to go Soph?" she said simply and sweetly.
"Yeah, get me out of here." I said with a small chuckle, trying to mask my anxiousness of being here. Without another word, April linked her arm with mine, just like back in school. On the walk to that car, my school memories started flooding back to me, and I was lost in thought. I could tell April was doing the same, but she was more aware of where we were walking. Her car came into view and I felt my legs take over as I paced towards the car for warmth and comfort.

We got inside the car and April instantly turned the air conditioning on, and the initial cold blast of air from the vents was beginning to warm up. We sat in comforting silence as we both recovered from the cold, our shoulder pushed up and arms our sides in an attempt to keep the heat in.

April started the car & began to reverse out of her parking spot, and I instinctively became her eyes to check if anyone was coming. I put my seatbelt on and let myself sink into the seat as we came to the exit of the car park. Both me and April spotted the ball of paper on the ground in front of the car, and April made sure to roll her tyres right over it.

Just as I began to drift into a daydream April turned to me and asked: "Want some music on?"  with her own excitement.
"Definitely. Do you have Shawn & Ariana in here?" I ask while I look into the car door storage for the albums.
"Yep, right here" she smiled as she passed me them one at a time.
"I think we should have some Shawn first."I say almost reasurring myself and April. I stare at the album cover and I can almost hear his voice already. I must've been inspecting it for a while because soon enough April said:
"What are you waiting for? Put the CD in!" with a large smile on her face.
"Okay, okay" I said with a happy sigh.

The first words and chords of "In My Blood" played and I instantly felt elevated. Who knew a song could so that?

"Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up, no medicine is strong enough
Someone help me
I'm crawling in my skin
Sometimes I feel like giving up but I just can't

It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood"

I sing along as best I can without letting too many of my emotions show. My voice bounces back at me from the interior of the car & I sound broken.