So truth is.. is I'm very jealous. I worry about things and I am in full belief that I can fix anyone. But, that's who I am. And I'm afraid. Terrified of losing CJ. I don't know what it is. Every time I believe I'm in love, porsay, I get heartbroken. Something always happens. I beg history does not repeat. Nobody knows how I feel. Who would understand? Who would get that for some unknown reason I'm in love with someone that I've only been dating for 5 months, and every day I wait till 7:30pm to talk to him and hear his voice. Who would get the fact that I get butterflies when I think about him. I get chills when he's near and its so strange... I'm madly in love with CJ. I'm not sure if he knows, but I know and I can't wait to tell him. Because he makes me smile, he makes me laugh, he makes me happy. And that feeling is so foreign yet so....amazing.
-kim
