Dont fall inlove with me [SEHUN FANFIC]

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        Back then when I was a child, my classmates are bullying me. They're calling me names such as ugly, a freak, an outsider or any hurtful words. If I talk to others, they will avoid me like I'm some kind of germs. They think that once they've become friends with me, the bullies will also target them. My life wasn't that good, my parents are always fighting to each other. This reminds me of my mom, she had a stomach cancer and she died when I was 9 years old. I was left with my dad.. but he's not a good father at all. When I became 13, I noticed that something is wrong with me. My stomach always hurts and my head keeps on throbbing, I did even vomit with blood. When we went to the hospital, they've found out that I have a cancer same with my mom.

         One day when I was laying at the hospital bed, my dad visited me for the last time.. He just looks at me and he left the room. After that, I didn't saw him anymore. There's this guy that I've met who was nice, caring and loyal. But that's what I thought. I was staring outside the window at the hospital when I saw him flirting and kissing with another girl. My heart was like thrown into pieces. Since that event, I never talked to him again.. He abandoned me.. just like what my father did.

         A doctor who is a close friend of my mom is kind enough to let me stay at her house and took care of me. I did a private study at home, I couldn't go to school because of my condition. It lasts until I turned 18, I started going to school again. When the first day ended, I went to the park and stand at the bridge. Why is life so hard for me? Why I couldn't get a simple normal life like everyone? Why is it so unfair to not be loved by someone whom you love the most? When I looked at my reflection on the river.. It hit me... What if I jumped here and end my life? Besides theres no good at it anymore.. I wont be able to feel pain again. sadness.. loneliness.. And I'm becoming a burden to Ms. Lena.. Just when I was about to lose hope. He came in my life. He tried to saved me.. His name is Sehun. Even though I didn't know him in person, I can see that he's kind and caring. I was surprised when he wanted to become friends with me, it is rare for someone to do that. He's different.. really really different.

         Many weeks have come, we became closer than yesterday. I did even told him my favorite story. The girl who had a heart disease and is so not unlike me. She reminds me of myself because I could somewhat understand what she feels. I can relate on her. We both loss our love ones and we couldn't do anything but lay on the hospital bed because we're weak. When Sehun brought me to the park with thousands of blinking lights, I realise that there is something between us.. I can see it. I can feel it. And its what we call love. But no, I don't want him to fall inlove with me. He might do the same, he might left me as well. The day when I saw him again, I was wrong. His words are filled with concern, worry and truth. He told me to trust him.. and so I did.

        The remaining days are the best feeling that I've ever had. I couldn't even describe how happy I was with him. I knew he was the one for me. I can see myself wearing his ring. I can see myself carrying his child. I can imagine myself live with him forever and away from pain. But I'm afraid it will only be a dream. I will last soon... I am dying right now and I knew I won't make it during operation. I'm sure that today is the end of my life.

        Dear Sehun, I want you to know that no matter what happen, you'll always be my heart. You've already been a part of me and I love you so much that it hurts to leave you. I'm sorry if I didnt tell you because I don't want you to get hurt. Seeing your smile is enough for me to remember before I die. My love... this is my last farewell. Keep in mind that I'll always remain alive in your heart and we'll meet again....

- Hyori  (Dec-25)

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Not all stories lasts with a happy ending. There are some who weren't fortunate enough to feel the bliss of unending love. When you love someone, there is sure a sad part. Problems and dillemmas might get in the way but we have to sacrifice and to fight it. We have to give all we've got to win every challenges that we can encounter just to remain loving that person even though in the end, there is death. There are times when we almost lose hope that we nearly slipped and never run again. But we must not forget that as long as we live. There is a great advantage behind all the efforts.

THIS is a story of a boy and a girl. Completely different. Opposite personalities. But one thing that they have in common. They've created a whole genuine love before passing away....

FIN

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Sad..eh? not really?

Thanks for taking your time reading this fic although it wasn't that really good. I suck at sad ending stores! xoxo

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