Jacie and Laura kept talking and Jacie told her about how she gets depressed.
"Sometimes I jist get so lost in my own head that I get scared. The pain feels so real but its all in my head, I get a release when I cut. " Jacie said
"What do you mean by a release?" Laura asked.
"It is like I can finally breathe after holding my breath for so long. It makes my pain real, it's not jist in my head now. " Jacie explained.
"Ok. So you are making your mental and emotional pain real." She states
"Yes." Jacie says.
Both girls look at the door as it opens.
"You have a visitor." the nurse says.
"Jacie are you ok!!!" Landon comes barging in the room.
Landon is terrified. He found out Jacie was in the hospital after he called Jacies mom. She had told him that she was a freak who should have just died.
"Landon why are you here?" Jacie said
"I called your mom after I got her number from your cousin and she said you were in the hospital." He said
"Landon I told you to leave me alone, you are going to be like everyone. You just want to toy with me. It's all anyone does." Jacie says almost crying.
"I don't think she is ready for visitors yet can you please leave." Laura asks.
Landon walks out of the room without saying a word. Jacie turns away from laura in her bed and refuses to talk anymore. As Jacie lays there she gets even more lost in her thoughts.
"I need out of here, I at least need a blade or something." Jacie thinks to herself.
Jacie began to cry and panic. She needed to cut she didn't know what else to do. As she looked around the room she saw her cloths. Jacie asked if she could have her sweater. She got her sweater and surly enough there was a blade in the pocket.
"Can I use the bathroom?" Jacie asked.
"Ya but you can't lock the door and if I'm worried about you I have to come in." Laura said.
"Ok." Jacie said.
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Hey guys I'm sorry if this is a triggering chapter but I wanted to let you know your not alone. If you need someone to chat with or you are considering harming yourself there is help.
Crisis Text Line: 741-741
If you or someone you know is having a rough day or you just feel alone than I have left a great resource here. The Crisis Text Line is like the National Suicide Prevention Hotline but you text some one instead of talking. I know for at least myself texting is easier than talking. I have used this resource many times, this service is free and confidential. If you or someone you know are struggling I would encourage you to get help or at least talk to someone.
~pixi
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RandomJacie lives with her abusive mother and gets bullied at school. She is trying to live her life away from everyone untill the most popular guy in 9th grade asks her out. Landon is loved by all, except Jacie. Jacie thinks he is trying to play a game w...
