Please?

The beginning of the end

*Jade's POV*

Jake gets a few looks and smiles from girls as I'm showing him around but I really don't blame them, he's in college, he's older. Girls are bound to be all over him but it doesn't bother me as much. You know why? Because he never batted an eyelid towards any one of them, he stayed interested in what I was saying. He even stopped me a couple times just to kiss me.
He's so different to Beck yet so similar. Beck and I have so much history together and he knows everything about me. Almost everything but that's not the point. But I feel like Jake really gets me. He understands what I'm going through, he has to be used to it by now since I completely spilled my guts to him when we first met.
Jade are you really comparing your Ex to your now boyfriend? Stop it. Right now just stop, you're with Jake not Beck.
"Alright, you better go to class. I'll see you at lunch k?" Jake says, breaking my train of thoughts.
"What?" I question, still oblivious. I didn't even know the bell had gone until I look around and see the half empty hallway.
"Oh, yeah okay. No problem." He pecks my lips lightly before walking off and I head to Sikowitz class where I'm immediately hit by a beach ball in the face.
"What the.. SIKOWITZ?!!"
"Greetings Jade. Can you please tell me why you are late to my class?"
"I was doing something okay. Jeez." I was so focused on the pain in my face that I didn't think about where I was sitting and of course as irony would suggest, I sit right in my old seat, beside my Ex boyfriend.
I soon look up and see everyone's eyes on me including Sikowitz's and it takes me a moment to realise but once I do I realised I had two choices. I could either stay there like it's nothing or move quickly to sit beside Cat.
I chose the first option. Why? Because I'm with Jake now, we like each other and everyone knows we're together and everyone knows Beck is single. I shouldn't and I don't care whether I sit beside him or not because I don't care about him anymore.
I tried to lie to myself.
I do care, a lot actually, just not in the way I used to. He's not in love with me anymore, he never loved me.

Class feels like torture and once the bell rang I was out of the class quicker than ever. I quickly headed out to lunch and looked around. There he was. Looking cool and collected. Leaning on a table with one of his feet propped on one of the benches. He has a similar swagger to Beck, the way he's so calm and cool, relaxed. They both have one flaw in common too, they fell for a girl who isn't right for them. I'm the gothic bitch of this school and of this generation, why the two hottest guys I've ever met would want to be date this mess is beyond me.
I began to walk towards him when another girl approached him. I quickly moved and stood behind one of the stone pillars as Jake looked around to see if anyone was coming. Then he looked at the girl, her arms were around his neck and his were on her hips slowly moving around to grab her ass. It killed me to see this, I wanted to walk up and scream at him, tell her to leave him alone and get away from my boyfriend like I used to... but this wasn't something that Beck had ever done, all he'd ever do was talk to them. That drove me crazy but this is like a knife to the heart, their lips touch and a single tear falls from my eyes. Does anybody care about me? Why would they? They shouldn't waste their time on me. But I've tried and tried to be better for them - everyone lies I guess - tell me they love me and then rip my heart out.

I turned around and started to walk back inside but I didn't get more that two paces before I walked right into Beck. I couldn't say anything, a lump in my throat was stopping me. My eyes were glazed over and I was so close to breaking down completely so I just looked up at him then walked off. Or at least attempted to.

Authors Note:

So sorry this took so long to update!! I hope you can still enjoy it, I'll try and get a new chapter out soon hopefully tonight. I know I keep saying I'm trying to post more but I'm just struggling at the moment with the amount of school work!
Hope you understand and still want to read
K xx