Please?

Just say it

*Jades POV*

After leaving the classroom I just go and stand in the hallway, my back up against the locker beside mine. My eyes are fixed on my engagement ring, the smoky diamond blurred by the tears in my eyes. He loves me... He loves me and I love him. We've told each other so many times, him telling me maybe five times the amount I've told him.
But, but why... if he truly does love me then why would he act that way about simply telling his parents we're engaged?! I've changed since we started dating. Sure his parents- especially his dad- didn't like me when we first told them that we were dating but I have changed. I've grown up, I'm less gothic... only slightly but I am.
He didn't care when we were 15 and announced our relationship to his parents, when I could see the disapproval of the amount of black I was wearing, how I didn't say anything but really they should be thankful I didn't say anything because if i did I would have one hundred percent said something about how ridiculous his mother looked- lavender is not her colour and no matter how hard she tries to pull it off, it's not happening and don't even get me started on his dad's facial hair. Thank god he got rid of that.

I take in a deep breath as I try to clear my mind. I had to get out of that classroom, away from him. It's been two days since we got engaged and he's acting like it's the biggest mistake of his life, as if he'd gotten me pregnant, like he's ashamed to tell his parents. The bell will be going soon and everyone will come out of class; those including my 'friends'. The only person I could probably stand to see right now is Andre. He won't ask me a thousand questions, won't make me feel like I overreacted and feel bad about myself. He understands me. We've been through a lot together. He knows how unhappy I was before starting to date Beck and he has helped me with more than I could ever ask from anyone.
I only had a few moments to collect my thoughts before the bell rang. I looked up from my ring and placed my hand behind my back, my palm pressed against the metal door of the locker behind me. It was only seconds before I saw them all walk round the corner, Tori and Beck are in front, Tori walking beside Beck in my place, they're the only two talking while everyone else watches their feet as they walk. Beck only glances away from Tori for a moment to look over and see me, obviously shocked I'm standing there 'out in the open' instead of in the janitors closet, sobbing and cutting -either a trash can or myself- alone in the dark. I haven't let a tear fall from my eyes. I stayed strong, it's not my fault. It's not my fault if Beck is afraid of his parents, he proposed to me, he wanted this to happen and it's his responsibility to deal with the consequences from his family no matter what they may be.
They all stop and look at me, saying goodbye to Beck in unison before walking up the stairs and off to their next classes as he approaches me. Andre is the last to leave, giving me a small sympathetic smile but it's not one that people give to pity others, it's genuine, he wants to ensure me that he's here for me no matter what.
Once the hallway is cleared I look up at Beck, it's only for a moment but it's long enough to see the look of uncertainty on his face, unsure of what to say to me.
"Listen. I don't wanna hear any 'I'm sorry baby, I love you, we're getting married I just don't think we're ready for everyone to find out. You understand, right babe?" I scoff and cross my arms "I don't need it. You know what, I'll start. I'm sick. I'm sick of you telling me and acting like everything is perfect in our relationship. I'm sick of you and your lies about how we're perfect. We're not! We've never been a perfect couple and we'll never be one. I just wish that the part where you say you love me and would do anything for me." I shake my head and pick up my bag from the floor and begin walking away when he grabs my arm.
"Jade let's not do this right now, please." He sighs but I just turn and glare at him.
"Tell people I went home sick. Wouldn't want people knowing your new fiancée is pissed at you." I scoff and pull away from him before walking away from him and leaving school, the main doors slamming shut behind me.
Great. I realise in this moment that Beck drove me to school today so I guess walking it is.
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I sit in my bedroom for hours. Thankfully my parents aren't home. I think I'd be killed if they found me at home during the day. I sigh as I look through the slap while sat in my pyjamas on my bed. I've been here for hours. By the time I check my phone it's almost 6pm. Beck has text me once and Cat twice, checking on me to see how I am but I didn't reply. I don't look at my phone until I get another notification:

Andre💚🎼: Hey Snow White. Missed you in music class, we got a project and I got assigned to be your partner. Come over tonight? I wanna start early.

A small smile comes to my face but I quickly wipe it off. I should be smiling at texts from my fiancé not his best friend. Whatever. I don't feel like smiling at texts from Beck. I don't wanna see beck right now. I pick up my phone and send him a quick text back before getting dressed.

Me: Sure I'm on my way now. You better have alcohol I need to clear my head.

And before I know it I'm knocking on his door with a bottle in my hand.
We don't even work on the project, not that we ever do when one of us says we want to 'get started early' Andre has always been my drinking buddy, he and I have the same tolerance and have the same personality when drunk.
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"Look what I did was totally called for!" I laughed and shook my head as I nudged him with my arm.
"Ohhh, yeah totally, it was typical Jade West, storming out of a classroom dramatically whenever something goes wrong!" He replied, waving his bottle in the air for emphasis.
"Oh shut up!" I exclaim before taking a pause and sighing. "Do you think we're making a mistake... Beck and I? You know, getting engaged at 17. Especially when his entire family including their dog doesn't like me." I look over to him, placing the glass bottle down on the coffee table.
He chuckles lightly "the dog? Coco likes everybody how does~" I cut him off
"Just say it, Harris... are we making a mistake? I wanna know what you think. I can take it. I had to take everybody's else's unimportant opinions today, I want yours..." I slowly move closer to him, my body hot, from the amount of consumed alcohol and the ridiculous play-fighting from earlier. "Just say it."
His eyes locked on mine as he slowly leaned to the coffee table to place down the bottle he had been holding.
His fingers brushed strands of my hair back as he grew closer to me. My eyes closed and I could feel his hot breath on my lips. I was completely oblivious to the smell of alcohol on his breath that was most likely the same on my part. This lasted only for a moment. I pulled away the moment our lips connected and my eyes opened. I softly cleared my throat and turned my body to face away from him. I could feel his eyes on the side of my head but he soon looked away and scratched his head.
"Uh, I can set up the couch if you wanna take my bed, it's like 3am... I think at least. I dunno. I can check if you uh~" he stumbles over his words and clears his throat at least three times until I cut him off simply because of how annoyed I became.
I demanded we both just go to bed and not to make things awkward the way he was. We've shared a bed before and it's not as if Beck is going to find out. We'll probably forget about it anyway too with the amount of alcohol we've taken in tonight.
He throws a hoodie at me from across the room for me to change into and then we climb into his bed.
We take in a deep breath in unison before looking at each other.
"Thanks for tonight." I whisper.
"Wow, did the great Jade West just thank me?" He says dramatically making me push him before rolling on to my side so my back was facing him.
"Goodnight Harris."
I hear a sigh from behind me then some moments of silence
"Night West."