I was walking down the street just thinking why, am I still alive? All the guilt and horrible life I had was just plain horrible. I needed to leave. My girlfriend Lauren joined a girl group and never even has time for me. She was the only one who kept me from doing self-harm and she's gone now. Why'd she leave me? She always told me how strong I was, amzing, and beautiful. She was my support my sunshine, but I guess she doesn't feel the same anymore... Everytime I text Lauren she rarely replies, if I call her she never ever answers. She just had a different, better life, and mine needed to end. So I went home and told my parents I was going out with some friends, that I've never even had. I told them I loved them very much because I knew I'd never see them again then I took my dads gun out of his desk drawer, in the front room, and I walked out the door and texted Lauren.
