EatJin (JinxBTS+ARMY)

Chapter 7: Loved?

A/N It's a little random but this songs reminds me of this chapter. It's Lovely by Twenty One Pilots!

Jin's P.O.V.

  The car ride home was silent.

I had two boys attached at the hip

Jimin on my right

and Jungkook on my right.

It had only been two days and everything was different already.

The two days I spent at the hospital consisted of having all seven of the be in and out 24/7.

I wasn't ever alone for more than five (5) minutes at a time. 

And I have a feeling it's going to be the same at the dorm.

We had a week before practice started again and a month before our tour.

On the first day I could barely will myself out of bed and they  made sure I was ok.

I felt unbelievably selfish.

If I just pull myself together I won't be a bother anymore. 

If I just-

My thoughts were interrupted by a voice, 

"Hey Hyung?" Jungkook, I forgot he was with me right now.

"Yeah?" 

"You know I, we, love you right?" His voice was soft.

"I..." Maybe I didn't know. I hadn't given love a thought for years.

"Because we do. We really, really, really do." 

How could I be so selfish? 

No, not selfish.

Ignorant,

blind.

I was speechless. 

Tears built up and fell faster then I could stop them.

"Don't cry Hyung." 

"I-I'm sorry Kook." I choked out, "I'm so, so sorry." 

He rubbed my back, "It's ok Hyung." 

"No, it's really not."

The next day Taehyung was sat next to me at the  table.

My hands were shaking violently I held the ham sandwich in my hand.

"I believe in you Hyung." He said.

'Why would you encourage me to get fat?' I wanted to say, I only muttered a quick 'thank you'.

I brought the thing to my trembling lips and took a bite.

Tae gave me a reassuring smiling.

After seven (7) minutes I was finished with the sandwich.

I was also leaning in front of the toilet trying my best not to throw up.

Taehyung was behind me rubbing my back as I gagged and cried.

"It's ok Jin-Hyung, it's going to take time and that's ok, we still love you."

I cried harder.

Day three (3) : I was standing in front of the mirror.