death wish || ✔

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i remember when i told you i loved you 

and when you said it back, all i felt was joy. 

i remember when i told you life would never 

be the same without you, and when you agreed

i thought you were the one. 

but then you hurt me and the pain i felt

was surreal. i didn't understand what was

happening, who you were turning into. 

i remember the time you refused to tell

me you loved me, and the time you wouldn't

tuck me in bed because i had drunk too much

at that party, the time you told me to go to bed

because you didn't have the energy to deal with

my crying, the time you told me i was being silly 

for telling you how happy i was i met you,

the time you yelled at me when you thought i 

was implying you weren't serious about me.

i remember when you would want to stay

up late so we could chat all night

but then ignore me to play on your xbox,

the times when you would blank me for 

sleeping early, or crying in the middle of 

the night. 

i remember you saying that i had lost 

all my enthusiasm for you, that at any 

chance i would erase you. 

and i guess i had. because i remember 

the day i finally had to courage to leave 

you. 

[i'm sorry but you weren't the one and i am so glad i left you.]