Painful Love || Yandere! Satsuki (UTAPRI)

(07) Obsession

TPV

You are busy writing a song for Satsuki, while Satsuki has his bass guitar playing a little tune.

You are playing one of My Chemical Romance's songs to get ideas. You thought about writing a rock genre kind of song for Satsuki which was hard, you can only play piano which is your specialty and a simple acoustic guitar which took you a year to learn to play without any lessons.

This was making your head hurt, you looked over to Satsuki and frowned.

"Hey, you should help me you know." You said with a sigh, but it looked like Satsuki didn't hear you. "Hey, at least... Uh... Teach me."

"You're a composer, shouldn't you know how to write a song?" He said giving you a cold shoulder, you pouted then realized that he's trying to give you a silent treatment since when you both returned home he's been silent all day and didn't say a word. He can answer if necessary though.

"Not with the song, just to play the guitar... I really don't know how to." You know Natsuki's specialty was the Violin, but this is Satsuki that you are with. He glanced at you, you shyly fidgets your fingers then took off your headphones that was bursting a not so loud music of My Chemical Romance song but still can be heard when you took the headphones off.

He sighed then snapped his fingers, he signaled you to come to him and sit on his lap. "Uh, Satsuki?"

"What? You don't want to be taught? The sooner I teach you, the sooner we can be done." He said while giving you the usual cold look. You gulped nervously then walked approach him, you let out a squeak when he pulled you to sit on his lap. "There."

"N-Now what...?" You stuttered, he didn't smirk or grin. He was just stoic, it made you feel nervous but you try to calm down and saw Satsuki pull the bass guitar on your lap. He placed your hand on the neck of the guitar while your fingers on the chords.

"Pressing this chord here and there, try to play a tune..." He said then you strum the chords to make a tune, but it sounds like it's wrong. "Try again." His hot breath from your neck made you shiver, you tried to make a tune as it sounded right this time.

"I-I did alright..." your lips curled up in a small smile, he gave you a soft smile as well. "What's next?" you looked pretty excited that made Satsuki chuckle.

"Well next is-" he suddenly went silent when his eyes were staring at something, you looked to where he was looking and saw your wrist that was red after Satsuki snatched your hand from Ren before. He gently take your hand and looked at your red wrist, his expression softened. "Your hurt..."

"I-It's fine... I'm Fine..." you said then tried to comfort him by leaning closer to him, his eyes didn't looked away which made you feel concerned. Before, he was a really dirty sadistic jerk. The next, he looked like a sad puppy worried about his master. "Satsuki, really I'm fine..."

What's this though..? Your feeling emphaty for this person, this person that is not even whole, this person who is oh so violent but deep down inside you can feel his hate, his cold look covering what he is feeling... Are you really feeling emphaty for this person.

You set down the guitar and faced him, you caressed his cheeks and leaned you forehead to his.

"(Y/N)... I hope I can stay forever with you, I hope your feeling the same thing I'm feeling... I love you so much..." you were surprised at his soft words. You can see his tears, his expression shifts, your heart melts at what you're hearing, what you're seeing.

Why...? Why are you feeling something different than emphaty just hearing him say those words...? You two barely know each other, he barely even knows you. But he's already saying these things, that makes your stomach feel butterflies in it, your heart ache about thinking what people thinks about Satsuki.

"Satsuki you barely know me... You and I just met three days ago, and. I don't know if I'm okay with this yet..." His face suddenly changed. "I like you Satsuki, and I feel flattered about what you said. But I don't know, I'm scared you might change... I don't know if you'll change your mind about me. We change Satsuki, that's what I'm scared of..."

"I'm serious about this (Y/N).. Really..."

"No Satsuki, I'm okay that you like me and I like you as well... But not now, please. I'm not ready yet to open myself to anyone." you bit your lip, you can feel yourself quivering in fear on what you just said. He looked at you in disbelief, "I'm sorry..."

"S-Satsuki...?" No, it wasn't Satsuki that apologized to you.

You didn't know that while Satsuki has taken over Natsuki's body, Natsuki... He was watching them. He was watching his own body do to hurt anyone, it was making him traumatized. He couldn't look away, he couldn't close his eyes, it just continued.

Next thing you know, you felt a tight grip on your shoulders. You were pushed on the floor, your eyes dilated in fear seeing a fearful look on Satsuki.

"WHY?!! WHY CAN'T ANYONE ACCEPT ME?? IS IT BECAUSE I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH!! IS IT BECAUSE I'M NOT REAL AND JUST A FIGMENT OF NATSUKI'S IMAGINATIONS?!! IS THAT IT!!" He was mad, but also scared. You couldn't tell, your fear made you frozen in place, there was a lump on your throat that you felt, you were breathing heavily, your eyes began to tear up.

"S-Satsuki!! L-Let go--! Ah!" He was attacking your skin, he was sucking and biting on your neck then draws blood all over your neck. Pushing him away was a waste of effort, he was too strong. "S-Satsuki your hurting me!!"

"It better be, I'll show you what happens if you defy me." He carried you to your room and pinned you down on your own bed. "This is what happens if you don't do as I say. And may I also add? You're not doing what we agreed on our deal right... You deserve this punishment, I'll make you cry all night until your tears run dry."

Satsuki Shinomiya, the split personality of Natsuki. Born from Natsuki's depression, a complete opposite of him. How can you survive any nights with him.