You told me that I had the most beautiful smile in the world. Oh, how badly did I want to show you what lay behind it all. How badly I wanted to break down in front of you once and tell you everything But for you...I would pretend everything was ok...
I watched from the window of my apartment as you pulled out of the driveway, tears flowing down your face, chest heaving with failed attempts to calm yourself, hair a mess from the amount of times you had messed it up.
Seeing you like this... it hurt me so much. More than I could ever put into words. I never wanted to cause you this pain.
Only I deserved that.
Not you. Not my best friend. Not anyone.
It was my burden to bear.
I sat down on the edge of my bed, running my hand lightly over the scars that littered my hand.
I closed my eyes, trying not to let the tears fall.
It hurt me sometimes to see my hand covered in all these marks. They reminded me of just how sick I was... sick to be doing this to myself.
A soft sob escaped my lips.
I couldn't keep doing this.
Hurting myself but also hurting the people I cared for.
I got up, wiping the tears away furiously.
I needed to do this.
I grabbed the back pack from my closet that had been sitting packed for months now.
I had to go. For the sake of everyone else.
I looked at my room one last time, eyes falling on the Polaroid I had of you.
I picked it up, softly tracing my fingers over your face.
You looked so....
Happy.
It was a sin for me to taint that happiness.
I steeled myself.
What I was doing was right. For everyone's sake.
I grabbed a sticky note, quickly scribbling a message on it before placing it on my bed before slinging the bag over my shoulder.
I turned the lights off, before running down the stairs and walking out of the door, not looking back even once.
I threw the bag rashly in the car, before sticking the keys into the ignition and driving away.
Where would I go?
I shook my head at the question that crossed my mind.
Hey guys! I'm backkkkk. I'm sorry it took me so long to get this next part of Tell Me out, but I was literally preparing for an exam, so I didn't want to be stressed out when I wrote this. Please enjoy the chapter!
Another quick note. Thank you so so much for those of you who have been actively reading and commenting on my book!! I can't actually tell you how much it excites me when I see the comments you leave behind for me or to see that people are actually reading this story. You guys are fricking amazing!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
*My emotions right now 😂*
Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
