It been four days since i have been put on bed rest. The entire time jay has been up in my face asking me all these questions. Do you want some of this? Do you need this? Can i do this for you? Do you want anything? Are you alright? I really just want to punch him in his throat so bad. I wish he would just leave me alone. Even when he cant be here he gets Julius or Solange to come over and bother me. I dont under stand why he being so over the top. I know how to pick up a phone and call him if i need him. I cant yell to him because the doctor said that if I yell too may strain my stomach too much and cause me to go into labor (but I still yell at him when necessary) . The main goal right now is for me to hold this baby in until its due date, but not yelling too much is getting really hard when all i want to do is shout in Jays face all the time and tell him to go away.
Speaking of him here he is now. "Baby, do you want some ice cream?" See what i mean. Like i never said anything about ice cream. he just comes out of the blue with these random suggestions. I answered with a fake giggle and, "No Babe im fine. I will call you if i need anything." Before he turned around to leave he said the same thing he always does. "Alright call me if you need me. Ill come check on you again in 30 minutes." And when he says that hes not lying. He comes in here every thirty minutes on the dot. He hasnt been late once. I love his dedication but its getting a little annoying.
I turned on my side and thats when the baby began to abuse my rib cage again. Everytime i go to lay down he/ she does this, and they continue to do it until Jay comes to talk to them. This crap is really annoying also. I swear everything is getting on my nerves today. But jay did say call him if i need him, so i screamed out his name as loud as i could because i had no clue where he was at in this house and this had to end. He quickly came rushing up the stairs and into the door way of our room. "Whats wrong, Baby?" he asked me with panic laced in his voice. I looked down at my tummy then gave him a symathetic gaze. It must have clicked in his mind what i wanted him to do because he then said, "I need to talk to my little one again?" I winced from another kick then nodded my head. He came further into the room and walked to the side of the bed that had the nightstand with headphones in it. He pulled them out and connected them to my iphone. He says that i get to spend the entire day with the baby and he doesnt get any alone time with little bop, so his solution was that whenever i need him to comfort and calm the baby i cant listen and have to put my head phones in. So i choose Erykah Badu's 'Next Lifetime'. As soon as the song began to play jay knew and he began to lift my shirt and interact with our child. I could feel his lips gaze across my skin and place a gentle kiss every once and a while. When that song was over i switched to Rihanna's 'California King Bed'. Mid-way through the song jay tapped my shoulder and pulled out one of my earplugs. He said to me, " We're done talking. They should be nice now." I reached up and kissed him on his lips.
He is so great and i appreciate him so much. I had to let him know. "Jay, thank you for being so wonderful. I love you so much, baby." He replied, "I love you too. I cant believe you are about to give me the greatest gift ever." He smiled then leaned down and pecked me once more. I furthered the kiss by reached around his head and holding his neck. He then wrapped his arm around my waist and took control of my mouth. He swirled his tounge so fluently throughout my mouth and made it caressed my lips just the right way. I moaned into his mouth, and thats when he pulled away from the kiss.
"Whats wrong baby?" I questioned. "I dont think we should start something we cant finish." He said. I was curious as to why we couldnt 'finish' this right now. "Why cant we?" I asked as i put on my pouty face. He said, "It too close to your due date to be doing stuff like that. I dont want to hurt you or our child, and I wont ever take that risk." I agreed that it could be dangerous. The doctor warned us that it could cause me to go into early labor and harm me or the baby. Sometimes the moment just takes over and i cant control myself. Jay still needs to be pleased, because i know that if im not the one giving him his pleasure someone else will be more than willing to. I reached down into his grey sweat pants and i went to work with my mouth until he came undone.
