We arrived at the hospital and Kelly grabbed the baby bag out the trunk. Jay had kept his promise. We rode this elevator up to the fourth floor where there was no one else except nurses and doctors. I was pushed into my room and then Jay helped me transition from sitting in this wheelchair to my birthing bed.
On the way over here I gave myself a mental pep talk. I'm no longer nervous or worried. I'm gonna channel all my nerves into ensuring that my baby gets here safely. I know that my body will do whatever it has to for my little one to get here safely so I just have to relax and let nature take it's course.
"Bey, we're about to meet our little one!" Jay said to me. I replied "I know I'm so excited" He looked down at me and I could see all the love flowing between us. As soon as he was about to lean down so his lips could meet mine another excruciatingly painful contraction came. I grabbed jays hand with my right hand and the bed sheets with my other. This was seeming to go on forever. My muscles tended so horrifically while these surges of pain flowed through my mid section. When I finally could open my eyes again I saw my Momma standing on the other side of my bed. I didn't even know that I had grabbed her hand while I was going through my contraction.
I looked up to her with a weary expression. Her eyes were filled with tears. That just made me start crying also. once my first tear streamed down my face she immediately wiped it away then leaned down to give me a hug. "Baby you will be alright. You body knows exactly what to do. you just have to let go and let it happen, and in no time your little one will be I'm yours arms. You got this-"
Someone knocked on the door just then. I looked up towards the door and saw a hand full of doctors coming into my room. Now this room was pretty big but I still didn't feel comfortable with all these people in here. I tapped Shawn's shoulder and whispered my concern into his ear. I knew that he was going to take care of it when he pulled the head doctor out into the hallway.
When he returned to my side i looked up at him expecting him to tell me what happened. He didnt disappoint and began explaining what he did to me. "Dr. Smith said that he understands and when you give birth it will only be him and two nurses in here. They are mandatory so we cant change that part. He also told me that they are gonna check how dilated you are in a couple of minutes they are just trying to get everything ready for you." He said. I was completely satisfied with that answer. I smile up to him but that smile quickly vanished as the pressure of another contraction came through. I snatched up jays hand and squeezed all the pain out. I also reached for my moms hand on the other side but I couldn't find it. I stopped trying, closed my eyes and waited for the pain to end. I still don't understand how anyone can say that child birth is a beautiful thing. I'm not seeing anything but pain.
As I opened my eyes I looked around the room I saw that my mom was watching from the corner of the room. Some help she is. I looked over to jay but before my eyes spotted him they got stuck on something else. I noticed that my legs were wide open and Dr.Smith was looking at my private parts. My first instinct was to close them, but something was resisting them from closing. He finally spoke up, "You can stop trying to close you legs, its not going to happen. You are dilated enough for you little one to make their debute. So when you have your next contraction Im going to coutn to three. On three i want to to push as hard as you can." I nodded my head because i was just so tired.
Jay continued to hold my hand while gently rubbing my nuckles with his thumb. It was so calming. He reached over with his other hand and brushed my loose strands away from my forehead and kissed me gently. he then whispered to me. " Its almost time to meet our little one. Thank you so much for this. I love you so much." I smiled at him then kissed him on his lips. I looked over at my mom and i saw that she was back by my side. I quickly grabbed her hand before she could notice what i was doing. It was prefect timing because just then another contraction was coming through.
I made eye contact with Dr. Smih and he gave me a slight smile and nod. He began his count. "One." I looked at my mom and she whispered to me, "You got this baby girl." I then heard the doctor count "Two." I looked over at my loving husband and he just gave me so much courage. Im so lad that i can give him ths and that he is so elated. He looked at me and said, "I love you, Bey." I smiled as much as i could throught the pain. I heard Dr. Smith yell out the last number in our countdown. "Three." I know that its my turn to do my job. I squeezed my eyes shut and pushed with all the force i had inside me. I kept the pressure going. I eventually felt somethign large and round slide out. I cant really describe the feeling of it. I then heard my first child yell. Tears were streaming down my face. I heard my child cry for the first time. That was such a beautiful sound.
I finally opened my eyes and looked up to shawn and he was crying also. He was recording this on his phone eventhought we have a cam corder set up in the room recording it all. I smiled and then got worried. Where is my child. I still dont even know if it is a boy or a girl. WHere is my baby? SHawn must have known that i was worried because he said to me, "Calm down they are just cleaning our baby up. they should be almost done." My smiled returned to my face as i waited for my baby to be placed in my arms.
After about five minutes I started to get worried. Where is my child? WHat is my child? This is getting on my nerves. "Jay, are they almost done?" I asked him, even though my mother replied. "Girl, be patient. You will get to see your baby when the doctors are done." Just then Jay walked away. He was out of my eye sight so i have no clue where he went. I looked up to my mom and she had anticapation laced all over her face as well. I know that she cant wait to see her new grandchild,as well.
It seemed that hours had passed before he came from around the corner. He had a tiny ball of baby pink blankets in his arms. A GIRL. I could also see tears gracefully sliding down his cheeks. He walked carefully over to me and placed the light pallet of blankets down into my awaiting arms. I looked down and saw my child. My very first- born child. my baby girl. SHe looked so perfect. Tears continusily formed in my eyes making my vision blurry.
I wiped my eyes than began to really observe every detail of my baby girl. Her cheeks are so plump and round. SHe definatly doenst have my nose, but she got my signaturely arched eyebrows. Her little eyes were still shut so i dont know whos eyes she has. I pulled the blanket back a little bit and direted my attention to her little ears. Those she definatly got from me. I chuckled. SHawns voice brought me out of my thoughts, "What you laughing at babe?" I immediatly replied back to him. "Nothing just checking out my princesses features." i looked over to my mom. She was also shedding tears of joy. JAy leaned down and placed a gentle kisss on our baby girls forehead causing her to shift, then one on my lips. This has to be the most specialist time of my life. I feel so complete now that my baby is here. I feel like she truly is the last piece to my puzzle.
I looked back up from my child to see my mom walking out. I shouted over to her before she closed the door behind her. "Ma, where are you going?" SHe turned around and grinned, " I was going to the waiting room to get your sisters so they could meet there new niece." I noddded in content and returned my attention back to my newly born baby an dmy husband.
"Bey, can I hold her again? I feel lost without her in my arms now that shes really here." My heart just swole at that request. He is the man of my dream after all we have been through together we can still bask in this moment together and apprectiate the gift that God has just given us.
I handed over my baby and Shawn began walking and bouncing her. She is a very quiet baby, she ahsnt cried since the time when she came out of me. I feel so connect to her my husband and God right now i cant even explain it. Shawn bent down and asked me if i wanted to stay tonight or go home. I opted to head back to our place tonight because secrectly i still was excited to know what the nursery that Jay put together looks like. Him keeping this secret from me what so great. It was really an awesome moment when he came into my vision with a pink bundle in his arm. Uhh, I love him.
As me and Shawn were glancing down at our baby counting her fingers and toes their was a gently knock on my door. Shawn told whoever it was to come in. And we saw my two big head sisters, Kelly and Solange come around the door. Behind them we saw Annie, Jays sister and his Mom, Ms. Gloria. My mom wa salso behind them. We took the next couple hours to talk witha ll of them as they each spend time holding my baby girl.
"Wait wait wait, What di yall even name her?" Solange asked causing all of us to giggle and laugh, because we havent even named her yet. Kelly spoke up next and critizized us,"How do yall sit here with her for hours and not give a name yet?" I looked up to Shawn and we had a conversation with our eyes and we at the same time said, "Blue Ivy Carter."
