Opposites attract: a Spongebob x Squidward Fanfiction

I can't think straight(Ch.2)

Squidwards P.O.V~

The room fills with warmness from a fireplace in the corner, it was cold, and snowy outside on the winter Day, I'm sitting on a couch, not in my house "Heya Squidy, you want something to drink like cocoa?" Spongebob asks, I nod as he walks off into the kitchen coming back a few minutes later with two mugs of what I presume to be cocoa and hands one mug to me, I take a sip. It was very good, I set down my mug, and Spongebob grabs my hand and pulls me close "Your eyes are so beautiful" he says softly and smirks a bit "Thank you..." I say shyly. He gives me a kiss on the cheek.
I wake up in my warm living room, to the sound of people walking around my house and my TV playing music, someone knocks at my door making me jump. I go to my door "Hello?" I call "I heard you just moved in from my friend!" I open the door a bit "Who are you?" I say a bit rudely "Well I'm Patrick, Patrick Starr!" he says gleefully. "Thanks, Nice meeting the neighbors" "Can I come in?" He says a bit quietly, "S...Sure...?" I back up and open the door more and cross my arms as a safety habit. He walks in rolling up his sleeves a bit and putting down Gifts that he had brung "My friend Spongebob will be coming over is th-" "Not him..." I sigh "Why not him, do you not like him or something?" He looks at me puzzled "I like him, but," I pause "Nothing..." I sigh, and sit on the couch. I pat the couch "Come sit, please" he comes over and sits. There's a knock at my door and I open it "Come in" Spongebob walks in and puts the presents on the table "what do you think of Bikini Bottom?" I look at him "It's nice I guess" "where going to the park today, would you like to come? Its very pretty outside, ecspecially the fresh snow" he asks "uhm, sure…anyone else coming?" Patrick nods, "who..?" I ask, he smiled "Spongebob!", I get a small bit flustered as I set my head in my hands, "....You okay?" Patrick asked "y...yeah! I'm just nervous...yaknow? n..new environment!" I squeaked out, he nodded a bit, I looked away, my mind wondering off to...other....things when he cleared his voice "Spongebob would also like you to come over for dinner!" I squeak out a pubescent squeak and turned red "Nonononono I can't!! I need to distance myself from that...cute...damn sponge!" I think, I just nodded, "well...it's time I take my leave! See you later neighbor!" He patted my lower back, watch your hands, and took his leave, I swiftly walk up to my room and sit on my new bed, placing my hands on my head "ffffffffffUUUUUUUDGE" I exclaim, lying back, then I sat up swiftly and then stood up, rustling through my closet "I know whatll help! Some art!" I began to paint gently, calming down...I do not pride myself for this moment though, because of what I painted, something lude of the...damned sponge, "I can use this...for...later" I thought, gingerly sliding it under my bed, I lied on my bed, skin burning up "I can't be gay, it's impossible, It aint right!" I say, frustrated with my life. I lied my arms on my body and sighed "maybe...it's okay...?" I pull down my sleeve, looking at the bruises and self and other person made injuries on them "Would I..be...happier?" I think "no! I'm no....queer!" I say verbally, punching myself in the chest "I like...girls..." I say unconfidently, I pull out the painting and look at it "no!" I say, shoving the painting under the bed, I stand up, staring out the window, the Sponge shows up, walking in front of my house, he somehow notices me and waves, I shyly wave back, I plop back on my bed, then conked out with my thoughts.