A Walk In These Bones

Chapter 4

Another doctor's appointment came up, same as usual the doctor was going on and on about how many pills I should take, and nothing I haven't heard before. I went home and did the same old routine as very day. Steven was away for a while on a vacation with his parents. I called him every now and then but I was just too weak from the medicine.

Two weeks without Steven was so hard. I went down to the airport to meet up with Steven and his parents and go to lunch with them. I didn't come up with the fact that I could walk in the time Steven was with his parents. I felt so tired, and I could feel myself falling asleep. Steven offered to take me home. He stayed a while to talk to my mom about the trip with his parents. I was upstairs listening to the conversation. Steven was going on about how the trip was sort of like a "sorry I lied to you trip."

I felt so bad for him. Steven came up to say goodbye when he was done talking to my mom. It's weird being a 19 year old and still having to ask my mom permission to go out with my friends. It makes me feel like I'm 6 years old, but my mom's just trying to protect me. I went down to the park with Kailey on Thursday and relaxed for a bit, and needed to clear my thoughts. Kailey got a text from Sam that said that Steven's mom developed stag four of colon cancer. I just shut my eyes and cried. I called Steven when I got home, but I didn't tell him anything that would make him more upset, but we talked for over three hours. I liked helping people mourn and heal from and tragic things, or family problems.

I told Steven I was going on a trip with Him and his Fiancé, so I could get to know her. Steven thought it was weird that he wanted me to bond with his fiancé. In about a month my dad was getting married so they decided to go on a little vacation with me. We flew to California to go to Disneyland. I've been there before when I was about 6 years old with my mom, but it's been a While. We arrived 1:00 in the afternoon. My dad spent the whole time with his fiancé and I felt so lonely. I couldn't go on any of the rollercoasters I could only go on the rides that have wheel chair ability. I felt I Angry at myself, but never turned my faith on God because if it's what he wants, so let it be. I will never doubt God. I told my dad I wanted to go back home because there was nothing I could do. So I bought my own plane ticket.

I called my mom at the Anaheim airport, so she could pick me up, and take me home. The whole drive home I told my mom how the trip was kind of a trip that told me he didn't really want me there, so I got up and left, well really didn't get up because I can't. I went down to Steven's house that Afternoon. He grabbed me and hugged me. He told me his mom got worst, and I Cried. He said she might not make it through the da. We went down to the hospital to see her. She did not look good. I imagined myself like that in the future when I do die. We stayed the whole night. In the morning they told she had passed. Steven pressed his head into my chest. I grabbed him and Cried with him. I went to the funeral with Steven and sat next to him. I put a yellow Rose and a picture of me and Steven on her coffin. I gave Steven some space so he could say goodbye. I grabbed his hand, and he wheeled me to the car. The whole ride home He didn't talk, so I gave him about two weeks. He finally recovered. I love Steven so much. I took him to church with me and he sang every song we sang to praise God. Steven Had a Beautiful voice. I didn't tell Steven, but I scheduled a Baptism for him. I went in the back of the church with him to the pool. It was so cool to see him. I hugged him when he came out of the water. Now every week he came with me to church. He told me that one day he wants to get married in that church. He's so funny.