Perks of being a Bad Girl

Oh! is that my diary ?!

"Oh dear , I've got a lot of stuff to do .
Being home alone is good in a way , but not when you have a whole lot of  work to do.
I think I'll start with cleaning my almirah . "

( let me mention , I talk to myself a lot. A real lot.)

After speaking to myself I went upstairs for cleaning my stuff.

" Lord ! Do all these beautiful dresses belong to me ? Why didn't I wear them till now , ugh ! Anyway i need to proceed with my work ."

"Oh ! Is that my diary ?! " I skipped my heartbeat out as each of those stupid but deliciously creepy memories flashed in front of me.
I didn't know whether I should have read it or hid it somewhere before anyone else could find it .
I somehow chose to read it .

This is how it began..

Oh damn ! My life's too good . I'm so freaking lucky .
He texted me today !
Yes he did !
Thank God , he finally noticed my existence .

(Why do these crushes matter so much ? Haha )

Today is my lucky day . I'll remember it always .

He told me I looked beautiful in black.
Oh God ! I'm so happy today.

Does he like me ?
Or he just being nice to me ?
I don't know what ! But whatever it is , it makes me happy.

I don't want to look at the bad side. Although I know it will cause me harm one day but ugh ! Anyway , I'm so happy . Really.

(Oh damn ! Why ? Why did I ignore that bad side ? Ugh ! )

I'm so happy but I have no one to talk to and that's the reason I'm writing it down .

I hope you'll be loyal to me (my sweet lil diary ) and you'll keep all these secrets with you.

(Woah ? Did I really talk to my diary ? God ! Please send me an angel to erase my regrets . )

Another day...

Woahhhhhhhh !!!!
I can't believe it !!!!!
Damn !!!!!!!

( I don't remember if I ever won a lottery . Why was I yelling so bad ? )

Today, as I entered into the park where we daily go ( me and a lot of other so called friends ).

( I remember that park so well. That was beautiful )

His friends teased me with his name . That means
That means
That means.....
He likes me too !

(Phew ! What the .. ? Who does that ? Really is this my diary ? Damn God ! )

What if he doesn't like me ?
What if they already knew that I like him ?
But wait , no body knows it except me.
I don't even express my feelings .

What if I'm just assuming things cause i do not know the truth ?
Will it break my heart if my assumptions proved to be wrong ?

I think I shouldn't think about it much . I think I should ignore this for now. I don't want to over think or it'll ruin my happiness.

( I must admit. I was an absolute freaking teenager . )

An other one...

(Why haven't I mentioned the dates ? I don't understand this one day , another day thing. Well that's my old version. Haha, I can be excused , maybe. )

I haven't been writing so long .

(What ? I was so confident about not being regular to writing . And that's why I didn't prefer writing dates . That's something I must appreciate. The confidence. )