Hold On. (Rafael Barba/ Law & Order: SVUxCriminal Minds) *COMPLETED*

Chapter Forty-Four: The Undiscovered Country.

Alisha

We currently all sat outside a house, surrounding Aaron, "He's on the first floor and he's not coming out," Amanda tells Liv, "He said the baby is fine, we had a hard time getting him to turn his cell phone on," I explain.

"Call him again," Liv says and Amanda does so, "Hello?" Aaron asks, "Hey Aaron, it's me Amanda," "There is so many of them, tell them to back off," Aaron asks, "I-I can't do that, but my boss is here, she wants to talk to you." Amanda says handing the phone to Liv, "Hey Aaron," Olivia says, "Call me Olivia...I spoke with Maggie, well Aaron she's worried about Drew," 

"Aaron how about you let me come in there and we figure this out, face to face, okay?" Liv asks, "The dudes got a gun," Fin says and Olivia looks at Fin. 

"Okay guys," she says handing me her cell phone, "No, what do you think you're doing Liv?" Fin asks but she ignores him, she takes her gun out and hands it to Sonny. 

She begins slowly walking towards the door, and she goes into the building. 

We get back to the station and take Maggie into an integration room, Amanda, Rafael and I were all in the room.

"It's not like I was going to hold a pillow over his face, doctors have humane ways of doing it, we were waiting on a court order..." Maggie explains.

"To kill your son?" Amanda asks angrily, Maggie looks at us, "To end his suffering..." "I feel like I'm chasing my tail," Amanda says standing up, "Please Mrs. Householder try and see this from our point of view," Rafael says. 

"You think I'm a terrible person," she cries, "I don't know you well enough to judge," Rafael states, "What kind of a mother wants her child to die?" Maggie asks, "Tell me," Rafael says. 

"Everyday that he lives the pain gets worse," Maggie explains, "What did the doctors say?" I ask her, "That there is nothing they can do, that we can only watch him suffer until--" she stops and looks down, "It is killing us Mr. Barba," Maggie says. 

I see the look of empathy in his eyes, it looks like he's about to cry. "You're a lawyer, I thought the law was supposed to protect us!" Maggie snaps, "It's also supposed to protect Drew..." Rafael says softly.

"But it's hurting him," Maggie whispers, "Day after Day.." we look at her, "It would be so easy if..." she takes a breath, "I filed a motion in court, to let me....Aaron didn't agree with it but he agreed to do whatever the judge says," Rafael looks to me and then Amanda, 

"It appears Aaron has changed his mind," Rafael says. "I am not a horrible person Mr. Barba, if it was not the only thing to do...the doctors say he has no brain activity, he's a lump of flesh...MY beautiful lump of flesh, he should get the peace we all deserve...h-he can't see, he-e can't hear! GO! GO! look at him!" she yells, pointing at the door, "He is all but dead already," she cries. 

Rafael and I exit the room, "Sometimes the law sucks," Fin says to Sonny, "I concur, "Rafael says as he shuts the door. 

"You think we should lock him up?" Olivia asks, "My dad always said he wasn't scared of being dead he was scared of dying, that kid is dying every day," Rafael says softly, "And he's taking his folks with him,"

Amanda comes out of the room, "She says she wants to see Aaron," Liv nods and Amanda tells Maggie to come, she does so and Olivia opens the door, Maggie goes inside. They embrace each other as we all watch.

Rafael shakes his head, "Christ.." He whispers. "No one is forcing you to prosecute," Olivia says, "If I don't I'm telling the world that baby Drew has no rights," 

"What about his right to die?" I ask, he doesn't say anything. 

"o-okay let's find out if daddy's little thing with Drew hurt the baby," Rafael says, "So you can let him go with a clear conscious," Olivia says, "So I can prosecute and maybe get some sleep for the next decade or so.," he whispers and walks off. 

I follow him, "Baby, are you okay?" I ask him, "What if it was her? Would you want her to suffer or would you do what was needed?" Rafael asks me, "I would see if there were any other options..." I say, Rafael nods and then leaves. 

When I got home around 8, the apartment was empty which means Rafael was still at work, probably figuring out what he was going to do. I sat on the couch and ran my hands over my stomach, "I would fight for you, if there is life, there is hope," I whisper. "You are going to be so loved when you come into this world little one, so loved..." I lay down on the couch and doze off.

A couple of hours later, I hear the front door open, I slowly sit up and Rafael comes in with tears on his face. "Baby? What's wrong?" I ask.

"Drew is gone," he whispers, "Wh-what?" I ask standing up. "What do you mean he's gone? He passed away?" Rafael looks at me and I knew...I knew what he did. "Rafael you didn't...." I whisper.

"Tell me you didn't kill that baby," I ask. "Alisha please try to understand," he says walking towards me. "Drew couldn't feel, he couldn't breathe on his own," 

"And who made you God!?" I snap, feeling tears fall down my face. "Maggie was there, she--" "Rafael its murder. You could go to jail," "That's a risk I'll have to take..." he whispers.

And we stood there, staring at eachother, neither one of us knew what to say.