Hold On. (Rafael Barba/ Law & Order: SVUxCriminal Minds) *COMPLETED*

Chapter Thirty-Four: Christmas Eve.

Alisha

{{This is about 5 weeks later}}

I sat in the bathroom, my hands resting on the sink, "Ali, you okay?" I hear Amanda ask me as she walks in, I sniff and look at her, "No," I whisper. I begin to cry, "Whoa, hey hey what's wrong?" she asks walking over to me.

"I went to the doctor today because I've been feeling weird and getting sick," I begin, Amanda already knew what I was going to say, "It turns out, I'm pregnant," I say, "How far along?" "About 5 weeks roughly, but there's a problem," I say.

"You don't know who the father is, do you?" Amanda asks, "Its either Sonny or Rafael, I slept with both of them around the time," we hear a knock at the bathroom door, "It's Sonny, Fin just got here with the cake and the rest of the gifts," 

"Okay, we'll be out in a minute," Amanda says, "What am I going to do?" I whisper, "There are tests you can have done before the baby is born to figure out who is the dad," 

I sigh, and splash some water on my face, "Right now I just want to go have fun with my friends on Christmas Eve, I can't believe Rafael rented a whole karaoke bar for us," I say laughing. "Yeah, he's kind of a weird dude," Amanda says laughing.

We both leave the restroom and head back out to the party, "Everything okay baby?" Rafael asks, kissing me on the cheek. "Yeah yeah, just missing my family is all," I say smiling. "I know you are," he squeezes my hand.

I notice Sonny staring at us, and I wave at him, he smiles sadly and looks away. "Ali and Barba should sing us a song!" Olivia says, "No no...I don't sing!" Rafael says, "Oh bull Rafi, come on, it'll be fun," I say, giving him my puppy dog eyes.

"If you think you can look at me with those puppy dog eyes and I'll say yes, you are absolutely right," he states, "Yay!" I say, pulling him on stage. 

I sit at the piano and begin playing, "Christmas (Baby please come home)" by Michael Buble, 

"Oh my gosh," Rafael says laughing, 

"(Christmas) The snow's coming down (Christmas) I'm watching it fall (Christmas)" I begin singing, Rafael laughs but begins singing as well,  "Lots of people around (Christmas) Baby please come home (Christmas)" 

"The church bells in town (Christmas) All ringing in song (Christmas) Full of happy sounds (Christmas) Baby please come home" I sing, smiling at Rafael, 

"They're singing "Deck The Halls" But it's not like Christmas at all" We both sing, "I remember when you were here And all the fun we had last year"

"(Christmas) Pretty lights on the tree (Christmas) I'm watching them shine (Christmas) You should be here with me (Christmas) Baby please come home" Rafael sings sitting next to me at the piano, 

"They're singing "Deck The Halls" Not like Christmas at all I remember when you were here And all the fun we had last year" Rafael continues singing, 

" (Christmas) Oh if there was a way (Christmas) I'd hold back these tears (Christmas) Oh but it's Christmas day " I glance at Sonny and notice how sad he looks. 

"(Please) Please (Please) Please (Please) Please (Please) Please (Please) Please (Please) Please Oh comin' home Oh babe You know I need you Oh comin' home (Love, love, love, love)" We both sing, "I gotta have you (Love, love, love, love) You know I need you (Love, love, love, love) Oh love, oh love (Christmas) Woohoo... (Love, love, love, love) I gotta have you (Love, love, love, love) I said nanananana... It's Christmas, Christmas, Christmas, Christmas... yeah Yeah... Lalalalala.." 

We finish up the song and I lean into Rafael laughing, I see Sonny walk out, "I'll be right back," I tell Rafael and get up, going after Sonny.   

The snow was lightly falling and he was just standing outside, "What're you doing?" I ask him, "Just needed some air," he says.

"Are you okay? Ever since I got back with Rafael you act like you don't want to be around me, like you hate me..." I say, "I don't hate you. I just...it hurts seeing you two together, I thought maybe I finally had a chance, I should be up there with you singing, not him," Sonny says facing me.

"Sonny, I didn't know you felt that way," I whisper, "But you're happy with him. I get that and I'm happy for you," Sonny says. 

"I need to talk to you about something," I say, "What's up?" he asks, "When we hooked up a few weeks ago, did we use...ya know...a condom?" I ask as Sonny looks at me, "Uh..I don't recall...why...?"

"Don't panic when I tell you this, but--uh, I'm pregnant..." "You're what?!" I hear Sonny and Rafael say.

I turn around and see Rafael standing at the door, "Shit," I whisper. "You're pregnant? How far?" Sonny asks, "About 5 weeks, almost 6, but I don't know..." 

"Anyone of us could be the father.," Rafael says I nod.  "Can we talk about this later? Like after the party at one of our houses?" Sonny asks,  "Yeah, come over to our apartment after the party is over," Rafael says. 

Sonny goes back inside and Rafael grabs my hand, "I slept with both of within a few days of eachother, I can't honestly say whose it is," I tell Rafael, "It's okay, we'll figure it out, I promise you," I smile at him and we go back inside.