Another Me, and You

Fragment No. 9

Arthit woke up with a gasp. Panic spreading because he was met with darkness. He should have already woke up, shouldn't he?!

"P' Arthit?" a soft voice come from his right side, followed by a warm hand that land on his cheek. "Sorry, I must have fallen asleep I forgot to turn the lamp on after closing the curtain."

Arthit blinked. There was a shuffle, and a moment later, the light flickered on. He let out a relief sigh once he saw Kong's face. He was in his bedroom. And Kong was still here with him, waiting for him to wake up.

"Did you have a nightmare?" Kong asked and offered him a glass of water. He gulped it down quickly. "Slowly, Phi.. I don't want you to choke."

Arthit heave a sigh and shrugged carelessly to answer his junior. He still doesn't want to talk. After placing the glass to the table, Kong decided to sit on the bed beside his feet. The younger man observed him carefully.

"Good. It seems your complexion is better now." Kong smiled sweetly at him. a squeeze land on his left foot. "Do you want to eat dinner? I could go a little bit or order in."

He shook his head, his hands reaching to grasp on Kong. He doesn't care that his junior look surprised at his action. He just want to feel the man. And after touching him feels not enough, Arthit dived through and hug the younger man.

"Phi!" Kong let out a surprise yelp as Arthit's action brought him down to the bed. A beat later, he decided to hug the older man back. "I'm here, Phi." He said softly in Arthit's ear.

It was the only thing Arthit wants to hear right now.

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According to his calculation, today is a special day. Kong seems uncaring, but Arthit now know better that what his junior show and what he was feeling could be a contradiction. He looks happy when Arthit asked him to go out, at any rate.

A date, his friends teased him. but he doesn't care. He hurriedly went back to his dorm room after his class ended and immediately ready himself for an outing. He deemed he was cool enough to go out after styling his hair. Nervously, he looks at himself in the mirror.

"This is for you, and me."

Honest to God he saw a flash of a different smile in his mirror. But as soon as he blinks, it was gone. Shaking his head thinking it was just his imagination, he went out to go to the meeting place.

..Kong always dressed neatly when he went out. Was what Arthit thought when he saw his junior already standing at their meeting place.

"Good afternoon khrup, P' Arthit." His junior greets him with a wide grin. He looks so happy it skipped Arthit's heart.

"Ah, good afternoon, Kong. Shall we go?"

Truthfully, Arthit doesn't have any place in mind for the duration for their 'date'. So they just walk aimlessly, and eat when it was time for dinner. They walk and walk.. Kong never once complain nor he was asking where they would be going. He just smiled at him and talks about anything and everything with him.

This feels so nice.

The night has descended, the street lamp glowing brightly overlooking them. The wind blows gently as they went nearer and nearer to the place he knew was important. There was also a knowing and indulging smile Kong secretly give him when a flash of recognition dawned on him a while ago.

Of course, where do you think I'm taking you, Kong?

They were here, on the Rama Bridge. Arthit doesn't know the exact location where another Arthit and Kongphob stop, but he thinks it doesn't matter in this case. So he stopped when he think it was enough, and lean his body on the railing, watching how the scenery seems lovely tonight.

"P' Arthit." What Kong wants to say, Arthit doesn't know. He was braver, if he can say so for another Arthit, and wasn't caring so much about what people think. But it doesn't mean it won't weigh him down.

When he woke up in Kong's bed, he would never think that he could fall for another man. He never thought that he could cry his heart out and won't be able to think clearly for another being. But look at him now, on the bridge that he knew held important memory for another him and Kong.

Because he also wants it to be his memory.

"Kong.." he started, still seeing straight. He let Kong settled beside him, waiting him to continue. "Do you know, that it was a hard time when I sort out things I have for the lost memories in my third year?"

On the corner of his eyes, Arthit can see Kong's fist tightened on the railing. His junior's head hung low, and no sound coming from him. a confirmation that this younger man knows, and it pain him so.

"Do you know, that I was sure that I won't have those memories back?"

Still, there was no reply from Kong.

Arthit went on with his talk. "Do you know, that I feel different from the P' Arthit you knew and love? That I feel more out-spoken, more careless, that I used to think that it's better to say whatever in my mind rather than keep it inside me? That it was better to feel rejected, to feel unloved, to feel lost, rather than worrying over and over again about what would happen if I didn't say it?"

He looks at his side, staring straight into Kong's eyes. "Would you still be beside me, knowing that I'm not the same guy you loved in the past year?"

Without missing a beat, Kong answered. "Khrub. I will."

Even though he anticipated it, even though he was almost sure of it, Kong's answer still left him breathless. The smile Kong gave him after that blinding so, or it might be because his vision blurring, as he tried hard not to let tears fall down his cheeks.

"I know I love you when you scolded me because I wasn't beside you as you recover. I know I missed you when we tried to avoid each other as the semester ended. I know I can't be without you when I spent my days longing after you, thinking about what you've said to me in that classroom during our school break. I love you more and more when you out rightly spoke whatever inside your mind. I love you because you take me here, knowing that it was an important place between me and P' Arthit that was lost. I know that I'm not wrong to continue love you, Phi."

The feeling inside Arthit's heart was overflowing as he listened to what Kong said. he can't help himself and drag Kong's body to him and stick his lips with Kong's.

"Then fall more and more in love with me till the end of time! I won't ever let you go, do you hear me, Kong?!"

Kong's eyes widened as he hear Arthit's declaration. He smiled toothily and replied, "Khrub. I won't settle for less, Phi."

"Good." Arthit let Kong go because embarrassment began spreading in him as he realized what he had done and said. he turned to walk away.

"Wait, Phi!"

Oh, Arthit know that he would wait until Kong follows him everywhere. He is not worried about that.

"Stop grinning stupidly!" he slapped the lover of his who walks beside him.

"It's impossible for now, P' Arthit." Was the sweet answer. Arthit can't help but rolled his eyes.

As they walk, he had a feeling that Kong keeps on eyeing his hands. Sighing, not caring what people would think, he grabbed his lover's hand. Which resulted in the stupid grin to widened even more.

"Stop grinning, I say!"

"I don't think I want to, Phi."

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A/N : Euyyyy.. it's finished! I'm sorry that I couldn't write more of this at the moment as I think it would drain me clearly. Thank you so much for reading this bunny/ficlet. I hope it doesn't disappoint you after reading "The Dream Brought to Me."

I want to fangirling about Singto's and Krist's new series for 2019, but I think I would refrain for doing so now. 555

Let's meet up at my other fic na..

Love,

Seia.