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The 14th

So there's a guy I've kind of been seeing this past month or so, and there's been a weird trend that kind of followed our relationship/friendship (We've been super close friends for a while) for the past few months. Most large events for us have happened on the 14th of each month. Of course things have happened in between these monthly occurrences, but we went to see a movie together just the two of us on August 14th, the first time we kissed was September 14th, and we had a genuine talk about what our relationship was/would be on October 14th (in an oversimplified explanation he was getting over his ex at the time). And recently we've been in a weird limbo in between dating and just being super close best friends, because on our own we compliment each other and we would kind of kiss and/or make out when we would hang out but in person we act like casual buds, like there's absolutely nothing going on between us

So the other day we were together at his house and, one thing lead to another, and we were making out on his bed. And, when I say we were a couple in everything except for the name I mean we were basically dating. Like we tell each other we love each other, that level of basically dating. So after we stopped making out, we were looking at each other and he starts laughing quietly. Not like, an actual laugh, but enough of a laugh to where I noticed it. So when I asked what was up he was like "It's just, because we're still technically not a couple" and, on that real shit for a sec, I'd kind of been avoiding thinking about it because it made me not upset but like confused because I knew he needed time but also there we were, on his bed, making out. You know? And it was also like someone asked if we were a thing and he said no but he kissed me in the hall maybe 5 minutes later (part of our much larger story that I'll save for another time) but like, back to the story him saying that made me think about everything and I just kind of went "Oh. Yea." And I thought that would be like the end of his thing again because you know he had brought it up a few times before, more specifically after we made out like this. But then he kept going.

"But I don't think that really matters. I don't think that it ever mattered, not really." And then he paused. And I was internally like 'heyyyyywhere is this going' and he was looking up and he just kind of went "Dang it it's not the 14th" and that's when things clicked for me so I asked him if he had been planning to ask me out on the 14th and he nodded and told me he was because he thought it was cheesy and then he struggled to try and figure out how many days away it was from the 14th (which was adorable real talk) so I helped him out by doing the math and saying "9 days?" "... yes. 9 days." So after we worked through that simple math we were sort of sitting there and I was like "We can probably hold out for 9 more days?" And he agreed so we just sort of thought about it and then I asked something even tho I was like 'i'm probably not gonna like this answer' in my head but I asked him what we were within those 9 days, and he said something along the lines of "Same thing we've been before. Just best friends with... romantic benefits" which is basically what we've called this weird limbo we've been in for the past month or so. And I just sort of nodded and was like "alright yea" so we just kept talking about different shit for a little while. And the conversation turned to complimenting each other, which turned to kissing, which turned to making out on his bed again. Which, is honestly not surprising given like how we've been recently. But yea it's nice.

And when we stopped kissing, he's looking down at me because he was on top of me, because you know we were making out and he says "I love you" so then I responded with "I love you more". Like I said, couple in all except for the name. But anyways, he responds with "I love you most" so I respond with "I love you more than most." So he tells me "I love you more than anything" and I respond with "I love you more than everything." And he goes "I love you more than you love me" and I go "No I love you more than you love me" and we go back and forth one more time and then he goes "I love you so much that.." and he pauses and I'm very much interested in what this pause is gonna finish with, and he goes "that screw these 9 days. You wanna date?" (I can't remember exactly what he said but it was something very close to that) and I just look at him smiling before I say "I thought you'd never ask." So then we kissed again, and had an incredible rest of the day, watching deadpool, making out intensely during deadpool (it's what Deadpool would want), eating grapes, it was fantastic. Also compliments. Loved it. Love him. I'm happy.

And even though it was the 5th, we both kind of agreed to think of the 14th as like, our actual anniversary. And for me that's when everything sort of solidifies. A nice epilogue to the crazy story that past few months have been for the both of us relationship wise, so to speak. Plus it's already kind of our day, so why not?