CSSS (Childish Selfish Self-cest Sacrifce)

The Moment

Sapphire POV

I lean against the wall exhausted after playing football for so long, the clock on the cool wall ticks into five past twelve.It feels so much longer then only a hour, more like 3 hours.

Looking around, I spot my classmates that I choose not to remember the names of, what good does it do for me to know some random kids names? They don't even like me.

Questioning this strange feeling of defeat, I look at rion who has continued to play football since ten o'clock, where does he get his stamina? It cannot be from what he eats, his deit consists of leftover out-of-date pizza and Crushed up Areo Bubbles. I remember buying him some last week and the smile on his face was blinding.

He talked all about the smooth butterlike texture in detail while we sat on our bed,such a nice day it was.Even though I prefer roses to Areo, I still enjoyed to talk to him, his voice is very cheerful and can always make me smile.

Why did that change? Now your all into football and hanging out with girls, I know you have been thinking about dating amy for months.I do wish that you could spare some time for me, even just a a few minutes, seconds.

Sorry sapphire but amy wants to have lunch with me today

That's what you always say, when can I eat lunch with you?

Maybe weekend?

Maybe never, its already been a week since then!

Sitting on the crumbly pathway, I stare at him, his legs move so effectively as he kicks the ball.His back archs so well as he blocks the goal post.His eyes shine so bright when he scores a victory on the field.It makes my heart beat in a gentle rhythm to see him finally enjoy something.

Why does something feel wrong?

A small part of my heart starts beating faster and my face feels like it's on fire, I have never felt this way before.My eyes glance in his direction as if in a daze, it doesn't stop as my body feels very sensitive in my clothes, like I'm about to melt into a puddle.

My heart doesn't stop, it continues to beat faster for several minutes and I don't question it, I just try accept it even though I don't have any idea what it is.My thoughts drift away into a unknown zone as the only thing I could possibly have in my brain is

"S-S-S-Sooo...Hoott~"

Lowering my gaze, I feel a spark of sin sink into my heart and turn my body unpure, I can't even describe what this feels like exactly because even I don't understand it.It feels like a bunch of different feelings as one big mess, making my head all messy and complicated.

"Hey saph, do you need a hand to get up?"

Flicking my gaze back up, I hear a familiar voice speak out to me.

"Huh..?" I say back, very mumbled and still in a daze as he blocks my view, crounching in front of my eyes and letting me see....everything.I feel like all the blood left my body.

"I said,do you need a hand to get up?" Rion repeats, obviously getting achey for being in a uncomfortable position, trying to patiently wait for me to say yes or no.

My face blushes bright red as I look round and realise what position im in, what position he's in and how everything is exposed to the public.I feel the same heat fill up a different part of my body as I try and give rion a answer.

"O-Oh no, im fine but thanks"

Wait a minute, when did I fall down in the first place? Why am I'm on the ground now? Why does he need to help me up?