Reminiscing Old Feelings(MJ love story) (Discontinued)

Deep Confessions

*Thalia's point of view*

Neverland Ranch

December 6, 1989

Main Bedroom

Some parts are really personal. My counselor says I should share this experience, so it won't affect me anymore. I don't need your pity or sympathy; its gonna make me stronger in the long run. Not trying to sound harsh or anything. For any girl whose been through similar circumstances.....just know that you're not alone.

3:09 am

I jolted up and looked at Michael, he stared at me with deep concern in his eyes.

"Lia, you were screaming in your sleep. What happened? What did you dream about?" he asked. stared at him; or at least past him. Michael squinted his eyes

"Lia, your eyes.......you look so scared and empty" he says

"I haven't had a nightmare like that since a was nine years old. It was worst this time" I replied to him. Michael tried to hold me, but I pushed him away.

"please......don't touch me" I told him; I saw the hurt in his eyes. I didn't mean to push him away, I'm just horrified by my dream.

"Thalia...what nightmare? Please babygirl....tell me". Tears fell from my eyes and I started to cry; Michael pulled me into his arms and comforted me. He rubbed my back while I sobbed loudly. I shed more tear in the last five minutes than I did ever............I think. After I calm down, I sit up and look down at Michael.

"Do you want to talk about it?" he asks

"yes....maybe reveal more than that" I tell him. Michael sits up on his elbows and I tell him all about the nightmare I had; his eyebrows arch out of confusion.

"Wait, who is this guy?"; I sigh, I forgot I didn't tell him yet.

"there was this girl.....she was content with her life. Never asked for much,but oblivious to the big picture even though she was mature for a little girl. When she was seven and nine; something terrible happened to this little girl. her grandmother's boyfriend sexually assaulted her. One day; she spoke up and told her auntie. The guy was arrested, but she was taken away from her mom. the daughter and mother couldn't have contact with eachother for about a year and a half. Then slowly; she was able to visit her mother.....and her birth mother an birth father gained joint custody of the child. Following that, came many other problems with the girl. Overtime, she healed......by the grace of god and counseling. To this day; she remains thankful and have a close relationship to god. That's why she wants to help many girls...........girls like her. She is special and is one of a kind; her legacy will live on even after she dies. If this little girl didn't snitch..........god knows where she could have been............she probably wouldn't be alive today". I took a deep breath and sat there waiting on what he was going to say. He stared at me with wide eyes; then they began to water.

"that little girl...........in the story.......it was you?" he asked fearfully

"yeah, unfortunately" I say. Michael's tears slip out of his eyes and I wipe them away with my thumb

"hey..don't cry. Its okay applehead, it doesn't even affect me at all anymore"

"I can't imagine you going through that......anyone for that matter" he responds

"At least he didn't rape me.........unlike in my dream". Michael sniffles

"do you remember his name?" he asked; I looked out towards the window

"I do. But I don't speak his name...to this very day" my voice was laced with disgust and hatred. I looked back at Michael

"what do you think triggered the memory?" he asked curiously