Summertime Sadness

chapter 4

I close the door to my room and collapse onto the floor. All that i was holding in i finally let go. There's nothing left to do but cry. There's no point of even laying on my bed because it wont get rid of the pang i feel in my chest. I can feel my eyes get sore from all the salty water that's being released from them. The last thing i can remember is the sound in my throat from all the crying until i fall asleep.

...And I don't even need your love but you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough No you didn't have to stoop so low have your friends collect your records and then change your number I guess that I don't need that though Now you're just somebody that I used to know..

Exactly. Exactly the reason why I've assigned that ringtone to him. Its Robert .We've been so distant lately and that's how i feel about him .

I wake up with my eyes feeling heavy from all the crying last night to know that the reason for it is now calling me on my phone.

'Hello."

"Hey Emily. What are you doing right now?"

Emily? Since when does he call me that. Hearing my name makes me want to cry even more.

"Listen, later me and Jess are going out to dinner and a movie. You know keeping it simple. i thought you could come?"

" No im actually really busy right now"

"What are you doing?"

"Uh cleaning and fixing my room a bit"

"Emily you can do that anytime"

"No uh"

"Your coming tonight.bring someone . Wait i'll invite Andrew OK bye."

'Wait."

...

Things just cant get any worse. Now i'm going as a third wheel on a date with rob and his girlfriend. wait? Did he say Andrew. Maybe i'll have a good time. At least i can talk to Andrew when rob is rubbing to in my face. Maybe i can rub it in his face and make him jealous, good thing Andrews coming along. I ran to my closet an started looking for an outfit. It's still hot out a little so i wanted to wear something summery. And we are going to the movies so i picked my casual khaki waist high shorts , my corset-like white top, red toms and a black and white striped cardigan.

A few hours later Andrew was at my door.

"Hey Andrew"

"Hey em. You look nice"

"Thanks. So are we walking or going by car?"

"We can walk.The restaurant is just 15 minutes from here"

"OK."

"How do you manage to always look good."

"You know Andrew your good ,Your really good."

"huh"

"What book do you get these lines from, i mean your always complimenting me and being nice to me. you really make my day with how sweet you are."

"Well there's nothing wrong with being honest. Plus i like seeing those huge dimples on your face when you smile."

That really made me smile. Maybe i shouldn't use Andrew to make rob jealous hes to sweet and to good to me. I'll just try to have a good time with him tonight.