💕Everyday Thoughts💕(partially Rants)

huge ass life update, probably the longest one

Okay
Okay
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Okay.
So.

Remember the past few months I thought I was gay?
Ha
You thought
I'm still bisexual. (I'm actually pan but I'm just very confused so I'm staying bi)
Because this is what happened--
Remember that girl I rejected?
I had broken up with my boyfriend at the time to get with her.
We ended up dating for like...a week?
Because she broke up with me.
Hahahaha.
Ha
Ha
Ha
Ha
H a.
I cried myself to sleep for another week straight.
Time skip.
Like. A week after.
Me and my friend joke about how hot this kid in our drama class is.
He was considered the "bad boy" of the school. Like b o i
So my best bud Geo (Imma call him)
Luv ya man 👏
Decided to ask him to hang out at lunch. And I was like AWWWW YEEEEEAAAWWWW.
And so he hung out with us. Now. What went down was some doki doki literature club shit. There were 3 girls in the group who fell for him.
Me.
My blonde bestie.
And the hot one (?)
Obviously.
He was eying the blond and the hottie.
And I was just bleh.
They both would try and please him and I was just there, but honestly. I didn't mind. Because me and him would have deep heart to heart talks. And that's what made me fall in love with him.
We both had connected that way and could share our stories and relate to one another on different levels.
This one day, my friend comes up to me and tells me exactly-
"We made 4 theories!
One, he likes the blonde, but actually doesn't and is covering up by saying that when really he likes me!
Two, he's saying he likes me but when really he's saying that to cover up because he likes the blonde!"
Three, he says he likes both of us when ry he just likes our boi Geo!
Four, none of the above and he's covering Because he likes Jay."

And honestly...
I was madly disappointed Because in none of them I was included.
I wonder why still.
I guess they were too caught in feelings they forgot I could possibly have them too?
So I just nodded and said. "I don't know".
Because I was actually sorta pissy about it.

Now, later that day. Me and my other best friend (the hottie?) And Jay went to go run some errands. I tagged along Because I usually did that, and guess what?
So did Bad Boy! (Let's call him that for now😂)
I was actually happy because when we talked I enjoyed our convos.
So as we walked there, he was super chatty with the hottie- ya know what, Imma just call her Ponytail, (we'll get to that later) but he chats up with Ponytail a lot.
And I'm just walking behind, very quiet cuz I'm a quiet person.
Eventually, he slows his pace to match mine and he points to her shirt. I was confused at first, then he started laughing. I was still confused until I had seen Ponytail's shirt unbuttoned by accident. And I look at him and smirk, I then continue to go up to Ponytail and say "Hm your shirt is unbuttoned, Lemme just button it back." And his face
Was
Priceless.
He looked at me like I stole his candy 😂😂
Then I just skipped over to him and he said "you bitch, you just cock blocked me and it wasn't even you."
I started laughing my ass off.
This sparked a conversation, we ended up talking until we arrived to our destination.
My friend Jay looks at Ponytail and asks her to come with him to pick something up. She nods and heads off with him, leaving me and Bad Boy alone.
They both did that on purpose because they had thought I had 0 interest in Bad boy. But I did hahahahahahaha.

And so, we went to the park and started swinging.
He had started asking me questions about myself because I rarely talked or got involved in conversations.

We ended up talking about school and why he was considered the bad boy and such.
I explained to him a lot about our school, and stuff. And then our conversation got deep and about family and about people who were in the loop. And who weren't. We both agreed how we weren't in the high school loop and shit.

After a while. He had said "Why do they think about those theories?"
I just shrugged.
I didn't know.
And didn't wanna talk about em.

But then he had made a joke and said.
"Wouldn't it be funny if none of those were true and that I liked you all along?"
I just laughed at it and he asked why it was so funny to me.
I later explained that I was always the 3rd option and forgotten about and the least wanted girl in the group.
Which brought it heavy again
He then told me it wasn't true and that he actually thought I was genuinely an amazing person
At this point I knew me and him weren't compatible Because come on, two cute girls vs me.
Obviously he'd choose them

After like 20 minutes
They came back and told us we all would start heading back.
He then looked at me and said "How would they ever know that I might like you?" And just gave me a dumb look. "Think about it." And then my smart ass grabbed my bag and walked away saying. "And how do they know that I could like you back?" And he just stopped and said. "Wait what?" And tried getting me to repeat what I said. But I refused.
Hahahahahaha this was my way of flirting.
Anyways.
After that
Me and him talked the WHOLE way to the station.
And Lemme just say.
Ponytail was pissed. How did I know? She walked in front of us and her Ponytail was swooshing. That meant she was pissed.
(Henceforth, the name ponytail)

Me and him had talked about past relationships and toxic ones..
I listened and gave my advice.
And he had done the same with me.
He told me everything about him.
And I did too
As we approached the station I said my goodbyes to ponytail and Jay.
Me and Bad Boy went the same way, so I decided to go with him.

As we sat down we bonded, we laughed and out of the blue he paused and gave me this cute ass look and said "If I were high right now I'd probably kiss you." And I just fucking blUshED and hGGGGGGGGGGGG
I just said awkwardly me too
Lmao
I'm stupid.
But yea.
After that we parted our ways and said our goodbyes.

Time skip. I'm at home, and I totally forgot he had my number lol
And he had texted me.
We talked about random stuff for a while and then unexpectedly he said.
"What would you do if I asked you out?" And I just said. "I'd go out with you maybe?"
And so he said. "Alright. Bet. Wanna go out with me?" And I fucking
Flipped
I
Screamed
And I was like
OHHHHHHHH BITCH SUCK IT I GOT THE GUY.
HA
HA HA
After my freak out I simply replied with "Yea sure." And I was so excited for school.

The next day, we hugged eachother and tHen.
My friend lectured me about dating.
And it made me pissed.
While my other friends supported it and said it was cute and unexpected.

Let's just say
It's been a happy 2 months.
And I love him to the moon and back
We've both shared our pains and emotions.
We've been through tough bumps along the road but fixed them afterwards.
He's amazing and sweet inside.
My parents have met him and shit.

To this day we joke about that very day.
And his original plan.
Turned out he actually did like the blonde, but just saw her as a friend after they had gotten to know eachother more. Henceforth, he fell in love with me romantically.
And I'm just happy with him..
And I feel like our relationship will last

And for our 3 month anniversary.
I'm planning on taking him back to that very park were we had those conversations.😂😂
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