Ivory Mist

chapter 34

Chapter 34

I just stood there, unable to move. Was this real? Was he actually standing here? Right in front of me? I turned to ask Mike, but he was gone. Where did he go? I turned my attention back to the man that had my heart rate accelerating. He smiled as if he was happy to see me.

"Are you just going to stand there?" he asked.

Oh his voice. I felt like I have not heard it in so long. The sound of his voice sent a warming sensation throughout my body. I just kept blinking as if I was dreaming.

"Well if you aren't going to come to me, I will come to you," he said.

I watched as he moved purposely towards me. Wearing a smile that lit up his beautiful blue eyes. I licked my dry lips as he drew closer. I felt like I was going to throw myself in his arms. He finally reached me and ran his thumb over my lips. I nearly melted to the floor.

"I have missed you so much Nicole," he said as he wrapped his arms around my waist.

I opened my mouth to speak, but could not. I was so choked up with emotions that I just threw my arms around his neck, and laid my head against his chest. I started to cry, uncontrollably.

Here he was, the man that I would give up everything I had to be with him. The man that I gave my virtue to. The man that I have given up loved ones for. The father of my unborn child. The man who was so controlling. The man who let me walk away and never called, or came to get me for three days. However, at this point, I did not care. He was here, for me. He loves me, and I love him.

"What took you so long," I asked as I lifted my wet face to gaze up at him.

"I was afraid" he whispered.

"Afraid of what?"

"That maybe you had enough of me. That maybe you figured out you were much better without me,"

"Dean how many times do I has to tell you that I am not going anywhere. I love you. Right here in your arms is where I belong. This is home to me," I said. His face dropped at my words.

"Nicole. I am so sorry for acting crazy about the birth control. I was completely out of line. And I am so sorry for bringing up the baby issue. I never thought our argument would drive you to leave."

"But you left. I did not know what to do. And we were both being so stubborn. I just wanted to give us some time to cool off. I never thought that we wouldn't be speaking to each other." I said almost in tears.

Just remembering how hurt and depressed I was when he never called... I do not want to think about it. I looked into Deans eyes. They were so full of hurt. I have never seen them this way. He pulled his mask off his face, and then mine.

"Nicole when I came home and you weren't there, I freaked. I thought that I finally blew it with you. Even after I read your note on our bed, I knew it was over. I have been so controlling and overbearing, that I thought I had finally pushed you away. I have never felt pain like that. Not even when Delaney cheated on me. I would have moved heaven and earth if it were going to bring you back." He ran the back of his hand down my cheek.

"I tried calling so many times. But I would hang up before the phone would ring. I haven't eaten since you left, I haven't slept. I cannot concentrate at work. It is like my world stopped as soon as you walked out of my door. Please do not ever leave me again. I am so sorry."

He pulled me close to him and nuzzled his face against my neck.

"I will never leave again. I have been so miserable without you. You are my world, Dean. But we have to promise to communicate better. We can't go of throwing temper tantrums because things don't go our way."