Lucas' Point of View:
I'll admit, I've never been in a relationship before. Basically all the love that I felt were all one-sided because I am afraid of rejection and commitment. Sometimes, those people that I have a crush on know that I like them. But because our society never fails to teach new generations on how to make fun of the LGBT community as if they were some kind of joke and do not deserve love that straight people are getting. For that, I'm unable to make a move to indulge in a deep, meaningful relationship because I'm gay.
So yeah, I was unaware that in my whole life, I considered myself as a girl. It's one of the reasons why I had expectations from the people around me: I wanted them to treat me as a girl in accordance to the freaking gender roles that my family taught me.
My parents are very traditional. They believe in gender roles, and doesn't express much of emotion. Basically it's a very difficult place especially for someone who's very dramatic and emotional, like me. This is the reason why I was never close to them. I knew that they'll not understand what I'm going through that's why I kept almost everything from them, even my sexual preference. For that reason, I wasn't fully able to express myself at home. Therefore, I don't know how to express my love for someone.
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Falling in Love to the Unavailable (bxb)
RomanceThe very anti social Lucas Spencer, has just started college and is already facing a big dilemma on his life. It's not about academics or whatnot. It's about his love life. He's never been in a relationship before. Now that he sees an opportunity t...
