Lucas' Point of View:
So what do I choose? It is friendship or love?
There are a lot of things that I have to consider here. So what are the benefits if I will choose friendship?
Friendship lasts for a long time. I can't get this kind of relationship from anyone. But also, I want him to be part of my life. To be part of me growing. If I'm going to continue my relationship with him as a friend, i'll be able to do the things that we were doing back then. But there'll be limitations. I can't tell him how much I love him. How much I love to cuddle with him under the sky full of stars shining like a diamond. I can't tell him that i'm jelous of him caressing someone especially if it's her girlfriend or a girl crush. I can't be with him as my partner for life.
But what if I choose love? Will I be able to do the things that I imagine? Will he accept and reciprocate my love? Well, I can never tell until I said to him thay I love him. I need to be brave enough to tell him my feelings.
Okay right now I'm thinking of all the negative happenings that might occur. But what about the positive side of rejection? So first, I'll have peace of mind. These thoughts will never haunt me again and I can now fully express myself to him.
The only problem will be, what if I lose him? What if he'll not only reject me, but move away from me? What if those things happen?
And all of the sudden, I cried a lot like a baby hungry for milk.
"You'll never know until you say it to him Lucas. And besides, I'm still here as your friend. You can always talk to me. You know that i've always been here for you. Everytime you make a mistake, I'll alaways accept you because I know that deep within you, your intention is to do good. And I know that things are frustrating you. But always remember that this will pass, you don't have to stay here. And the fact that it makes you feel hurt, gives you the choice to do something about it or not. So, whatever your decision be, and whatever the consequence will be. Always remember that I am here as a friend that stay by your side and help you get back on your feet." Anton said in a deep calm voice.
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Falling in Love to the Unavailable (bxb)
RomanceThe very anti social Lucas Spencer, has just started college and is already facing a big dilemma on his life. It's not about academics or whatnot. It's about his love life. He's never been in a relationship before. Now that he sees an opportunity t...
