I'm in Love with my Best Friend

Best friend

Tuesday ~ 9am
It's as if Natsu completely forgot about yesterday...
I mean he kissed me! On top of that...IT WAS MY FIRST KISS! I know I seem as if I would be popular with the boys since I'm so gorgeous but I've never been allowed outside, so there would be no way for me to get a boyfriend. Plus the people who've asked me out were old perverts! But I'm kinda sad it wasn't lip to lip, this stupid scarf blocked it! Although I'm surprised he gave me his scarf, it seems as if he never parts with it. Oh and it smells...so..so sweet.. Just like Natsus scent, so alluring, so attractive ahh~...
Wait! No what am I thinking! I can't love him...I can't he's my best friend... ugh but it's so hard when he's so adorable and kind to me, now he kissed me and gave me his most valuable possession. Natsu what the hell are you doing to me!
Though I haven't taken it off since, I just can't get enough of Natsus smell and thinking about our lips and how close they were to touching...
-Lucy holds the scarf to her nose and takes in a deep breath of the scent-

"What are ya doin with my scarf Luce? 😂"

"H-huh!!"

"Hehe.."

"N-Natsu! G-g-get out you p-perv!!!"

"Tell me what you were doin first"
-Natsu was instantly by Lucy's side within a second, their lips were inches apart as Natsu stared into Lucy's eyes, her face turning bright red and her eyes widening as he pushing his face slowly towards hers, and without hesitation he kisses her gently on her lips, playing with her hair and gently pulling her face closer and closer to his, holding her waist with his spare hand and pulling her onto his chest, picking her up and slowly walking towards the bed where he lay her down-

"N-n-na-Nat-Natsu..."

"Yes Luce? :D"

"What...what the HELL WAS THAT!"

"I was just finishing what I started yesterday, hehe"

"Natsu! You.. you idiot!"
-Lucy slaps Natsu and back away from him, she pushes herself against the wall behind her bed until she can't go any further, her face is bright red-
Omg omg omg...I just slapped him...OMG WHY DID I DO THAT

"L-Luce..I'm sorry"
-Lucy stayed quiet as Natsu crawled up to her-

"Luce...please"

"What do you want..!"

"Please I was just messing around, I didn't think you would be this upset about it, it's just a joke"
That makes it so much worse Natsu..you idiot

"Ok...I forgive you"
-Natsu looks at Lucy gratefully as she hugs her, his body randomly heats up as his face is close to her breasts. His face turns red and his body is burning.-

"N-Natsu..your burning me"

"O-oh...I-im sorry Luce!"
-Natsu let go and backed up a bit, almost falling off the bed-

"It's alright"
-Lucy kindly said to Natsu as she smiled at him sweetly-

"Erm..s-so what were you doing to my scarf? "

"N-nothing! It just stank! You should take a shower once in a while!"

"Hey!"

"Just tellin the truth Natsu!"
-Lucy giggled as Natsu chased her around her bedroom, knocking over things and breaking a couple of glasses and vases. But Lucy didn't care She was finally having some fun with her best friend, the man she secretly loved, and forgetting about the surprising kiss yesterday and moments ago-

"Your the bestest best friend Luce!"
Ouch...my heart...
I was just friendzoned....
-but Lucy's happy state instantly faded with a few words from Natsu, it hurts her how oblivious he is at times, especially this time-

"Natsu can you just get out..."

"B-but I thou-"

"Please.."
-Natsu shockingly leave the room out the window, carefully shutting it behind him. Tears ran down Lucy's cheeks as she reached over to her table to grab a book, she scribbled all over it in messy writing-
Tuesday 10:03 am
Today Natsu told me I was his best friend, usually I would be happy and glad he thinks of me that way. But it hurts my heart to think someone I want to be more than friends with only thinks of me as a best friend. After he kissed me as well... what the hell is going on in that mans mind! Does he like me or not! I don't know anymore. It hurts so much... I've never liked anyone and the first man I like the man who stole my first kiss friendzones me and ditches me as if nothing happened! Why do I love him so much after the amount of pain he's put me through... Why do I still want him to be mine, why do I want to be his...
-as she writes her tears mumble some of the words, as she flips through her book reading her past memory's, achievements, goals and thoughts-
Friday 7:27 pm
Today I realised how much I truely love Natsu... I've never felt like this before. When I'm with him my heart beats faster and faster. Although I'm scared he only sees me as a friend, what do I do. I can't keep my feelings locked away forever! But I definitely don't want to ruin our friendship. What do I do!?
Sunday 4:30 am
I just got home after sneaking out...my father had no clue! This was the first time I've had fun in years! I walked all around town looking at the beautiful lights in the night sky, and the glowing stars as the shimmer all night long. How I wish I could stay out there forever under the stars, they will be my guide...
Wednesday 6:18 pm
Today was very eventful, I went on another mission with Natsu and happy which was quite a lot of fun. Of course Natsu didn't choose a high paying one so we didn't get much money, along with having to split it three ways, it was still lots of fun. I wish we could go on like this forever.
-Lucy cried harder and harder reading each one. This is how she usually pasted time when she was upset. But now she was even more upset then ever before. She couldn't write anymore and she couldn't read, she threw her book on her table knocking over a few things and pulled the blanket over her head, she covered her crying and screaming with her pillow and stayed there for hours, but the tears wouldn't stop.

Thanks for reading LOVE YALL BAI!