Latrice's Story

Chapter 8

"Yeah girl, I was over my folk's house sometime last year and saw him. He couldn't take his eyes off of me. I went out on the back porch, he came out there and slipped me his card. I knew what he wanted, so I called him and we met up downtown and did our thing." Jamie said. "So was it that real nice Hotel on Fifth Street, the one that is connected to the restaurant?" asked Latrice. "Yeah, that's the one. We ate at that restaurant before we went to the room." Explained Jamie. Latrice shook her head. "Girl he's really freaky, all he wanted to do is eat me out. Don't get me wrong the sex was alright, but I was lovin it when he went downtown. I had to cum at least two or three times!" Even though Latrice knew it was pay to play, she felt cheated. Even though she knew it was only sex and it was for money, she would have liked to believe the lawyer really saw something special in her. She wanted to be special. When he told her it was good, she wanted it to be the best he ever had. Now, listening to Jamie talk about her experiences with him makes her feel like she's nothing special.

Latrice now sees no value in herself or in her life outside of the bedroom. Her writing, her poetry, none of that matters to her now. There was a time as a child, she would write a new poem and couldn't wait to let her mother hear it. She would be all smiles when her mother would say, "That's my girl! That sounded good baby." After her family was separated and not being on good terms with them, she has no since of belonging and nobody to believe in her and celebrate her writing and poetic achievements. So she has grown to get satisfaction from hearing men tell her how good her mouth feels wrapped around their penis'.

"So when did you all get together?" Jamie asked. "I don't really want to talk about it. Let's go get something to drink." Latrice said. Jamie, knowing something was bothering Latrice, dropped the subject as they headed to Jamie's place.

While Jamie and Latrice were at her place getting high, Nelson called her. He wanted her to come home. He hadn't seen her all day and wanted to know where she was. "I'm coming to get you." Nelson said. "No, I'll be home in a minute." said Latrice. Latrice didn't want to give Nelson Jamie's address. Jamie and Latrice get in the car and head back to Nelson's house. When Jamie drops Latrice off, Nelson was out on the front porch. Latrice gets out of the car and meets Nelson on the porch and sees that he is drunk. "Where the hell have you been all damn day?" Nelson yelled. "I've been visiting my mother, and then I and Jamie hung out for a while." Latrice explained. "Come on baby, I want some." Nelson said. Knowing she had sex with the lawyer earlier, but not wanting to raise suspicion, Latrice said, "Come On Baby..." They went into the bedroom, both drunk and high. Nelson pulls Latrice's clothes off. Latrice, not really in the mood after having a really good freak session with the lawyer, tries to get away with just giving nelson oral sex. It didn't work this time. Nelson felt Latrice resisting him. He grabbed Latrice with force and began to handle her in a way that was different than any other time before. Latrice, feeling that he was not himself, said, "Nelson, Stop it! You're hurting me!" Nelson continued. Slapping, grabbing and forcefully penetrating her. Latrice pleading for him to stop. Nelson didn't stop. He raped her and had an orgasm while Latrice laid there hurting, crying and stunned, thinking, 'Why would he do this to me?'