Broken (A suicide story)

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*WARNING* This A/N is long but interesting. If u want, just go straight 2 the story.

First of all, thank u 4 all the reads! yay! I can't believe I'm close 2 a 100 reads. ok, I know that ur thinking "y? its only a 100 reads, like, sum ppl get a million reads" I know, but u know that quote 'Always appreciate the little things in life' well, I take it 2 heart.

Anyways thank u.

And just chill, I don't care abt the votes. They can go 2 hell, 4 all I care. I just wish u'd comment, rude or nice, it don't matter. Watever :-)

But do u guys like the cover? My sister got a new phone n she actually let ME borrow it 2 upload a pic. thank u, sissy! She's like 11 years older than me (yeah, I know, my mom took her time 2 get pregnant with me) but she's 5'2"! I'm 5'6". Haha! sum ppl think IM the older one.

Anyways, the girl on the cover is wat I picture wat Miracle looks like. When I first saw it, I was like? "Oh my God!" This pic is pitch Perfect! And since this book is called Broken, and I saw that the glass was broken, I was like "That HAS 2 be the cover" but if u don't like it, that's ok, I'll change it. Comment, tho, wat u think of it.

Have u guys seem the cast? I dunno who should play Miracle, or do I leave it BLANK or just say the girl on the cover is Miracle.

Any ideas?

Anyways, let's begin, shall we?

Song 4 this chapter is... Say Something by Christina Aguilera & A Great Big World

-Two months Later-

Coco jumped onto my lap, licking my chin with his long pink tongue. I giggled, nuzzling the furry puppy with my nose. Adam and I had named the puppy Coco, after a long hour of decided over names Mr. Twinkle, Doggy, Nutty, Roe, and Small Weird Thing (That was Adam's idea). Coco suited best because his brown eyes were the size of Coconuts! Coconut was his his real name, but Coco for short.

Adam and I have been going out for nearly three months, since I met him in October and it was now January 17, my birthday.

I found it so hilarious that the people who have known me all their life didn't remember it was, but a guy who has known me for not even half a year did and threw a party for me. But of course, what did I expect out of my dad and step mom?

So currently, I was sitting on one of the couches in Adam's apartment while Adam is finishing the cake he made for me. I was suprised he could cook, but I was also tremendously happy that he was making a birthday cake for me. It was just a birthday party, just Coco, Adam, and me.

Adam had decorated his apartment with colorful balloons, sparkles, and a huge banner that said "Happy Birthday, Miracle!" It was really amazing what he did.

"Tada!" he sang, comming into the living room with a huge pate of chocolate frosted cake, the seventeen candles already lit. He set it down in front on on the crystal coffee table. "Make a wish."

My lips quirked in a smile and I turned to him. "A wish?"

"Anything you want," he replied, tucking a strand of hair behind my ear. "Afterall, it is your Golden Birthday, should be good."

My seventeen'th birthday.... huh? I think I know exactly what I want, I might not get it, but I have to try. Closing my eyes, I whispered my wish in my head, and blew out out the green candles.

(A/N: Haha, I won't tell u the wish, but u will find out wat it was in Chapter 10)

After we ate cate, Coco ate a slice too, Adam stood up and pulled out a small velvet box, the kind you saw in jewlery stores and opened it for me.

A beaded green bracelet was inside it, with a crystal small heart. It was the type that you had to tie around your wrist to make it fit perfectly. It was woven so carefully and perfectly.

"Its a charm bracelet," he informed me, typing it around my thin and bony wrist. "Or so I heard. I saw a girl selling it, and since I saw she only had a green one left, I thought of you. The crystal heart is for good luck."

I stared at it for a while, then looked up at Adam with a grin. "Thank you." His gorgeous dark blue eyes twinkled.

Say something by Christina Aguilera and A Great Big World then came on and Adam held out his hand to me. "May I have this dance, beautiful?"

My smile grew wider as I gripped onto his hand and let him wrap his arm securely around my waist and laced his fingers with mine. We were slow-dancing.

I stared up at him, frowning. "Why do you call me that?" I blurted out.

He frowned. "What do you mean?"

"I mean, why do you call me beautiful?"

"Because you are beautiful."

My heart slammed with my ribcage and happiness consumed completely. I felt....complete. Like I wasn't doing drugs, drinking alcohal, sleeping around with another guy, and like my life hasn't been falling apart.

Adam stared at him, as if thinking of something, then sighed, spilling his confessions out to me. "Listen, Miracle. I know you might think I'm a total whackjob, but I speak and only speak the entire truth: I'm in love with you." I gasped. "I fell in love with you the first time I saw you. I think you're beautiful just the way you are, black hair, pale skin, cute freckles, and beautiful green eyes that make me smile. In my eyes, there's nothing else so beautiful I've ever seen than you. Its a miracle that I met you, because then I would never know what's it like to love someone with all your heart, want to protect something, and spend all you life beside a person. And I know you may think your life has many problems and all, and I'm sorry to say that I can't fix all of them, but I promise that you will never have to face them alone."

I was crying, out of happiness. So this is what it felt like, like nothing else would be so bad if I had this in my life. Adam was the light in my dark life. I couldn't live without him, I needed him otherwise I would fall. "Love you back," I whispered.

He kissed my knuckles before kissing me on the mouth. I kissed him back, savoring the perfect moment that we had right now. This moment that we owned. How butterflies erupted in my stomache. How I didn't want to stop. How Adam held my hands as if I was truly beautiful. I never wanted to forget this feeling. I never wanted to forget him. Not Adam.

Because I had a feeling... that I wouldn't be able to spend the rest of my life with him.

That night Adam made love to me, while A 1000 years played in the background by Christina Perri. It was the best birthday I've ever had. And it was a shame it would have to end, but I was determined to make it last.

"Adam?" I murmured against his bare chest, with his arm wrapped around my small, thin body as if I would disspear any moment.

"Yes beautiful," he murmured back, burrying his head into my neck.

"I wish you could've been my first," I said, then my eyes gave into the darkness.