Undecided Love

Set back

After dinner with Yoosung and Elizabeth, everyone went their separate ways. Elizabeth is probably in my room or rolling her cat hair everywhere. Yoosung is most definitely playing on the game. I was sitting on the couch watching tv. Well more like flipping through channels. I stopped when i saw a video of zen on the news, Congratulating him on his big role he got, But then another picture of him with some Women holding hands. All i could was tear up. I wanted to call him and yell at him and ask him why? Why leave me like that? Why hurt me and betray me on our anniversary night? I hugged the couch pillow close to my chest letting a tear escape my eyes. "I still love him. Even after all he's done. I can still say i love him..." I sighed at the thought taking out my phone and looking through our photos. Nothing and no-one could make me as happy as he did. I laid on the couch closing my eyes letting the darkness over take me.
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When i woke up, the sun was peeking through the blue curtains. Waking me up outta my nice slumber. I sat up and starched my aching limbs. Sleeping on a couch is not so comfortable and nice like the way people think. "Another morning." I sighed getting up and walking to the bathroom. Soon as i turned on the light I couldn't believe my eyes. "W...what in the hell!!!" I ran to the mirror, looking shocked at myself. My beautiful (h/l) (h/c) hair was all over! It looked like a birds nests that got demolished by a ferocious cat!! I had slob stains going from the rights side of my face to the bottom left!! And dried up tear stains, smeared lipgloss and mascara all over. You would think i was trying out in a carnival. I hurried up and stripped naked, jumped into the steaming warm water.
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After a few hours of me time. It was soon 10:30, i walked to the kitchen hungry thinking of what to cook. "Chicken and waffles or an omelette?" I thought out-loud looking into the fridge. I froze realizing i need to go shopping, my fridge was haft way empty!! No milk, juice,bottle water, ketchup, BBQ sauce, eggs, butter!! "What happened to the food!!" I gasp hurrying making a grocery list. Soon as i was finished i rushed to the closest market.
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"Its a lot of people today. Wonder what's happening" i said to myself walking towards the Meat aisle listening to two women conversation while looking a the chicken wings. "omg! I can't believe he's here! And shopping!" "He is so handsome! I wish I could look that beautiful" "omg!!! Here he come!!!!" They yell loudly. I looked up and around, noticing Zen is only a few feet away. He was dressed in his normal clothes. Black jeans with a light blue v-neck shirt and black shoes. His hair isn't in a ponytail like usual, it looks like he just woke up like that. He look tired, with a few dark circles, but still very handsome and good looking. I kept staring at him missing him more, old feelings coming back I quickly looked away and back towards the meat. I started feeling eyes on me and hearing move moment. 'Please Don't see me' I thought to myself hoping he'll walk away. "Omg!! Here he comes!!! Look! look! Zen!!!" A woman yelled farther away from me. Once i looked up zen was only a face away. I could smell his lovely scent of mints and roses. "(Y/N)....." zen said while staring at me. His eyes looked sad with a little of excitement, and holding a lot of regrets and lust. As much as i missed him and wanted to kiss him and say I forgive you. I couldn't let him get off the hook yet. He gotta learn what he's missing. No more games. He needs to understand i can leave. Im not a object you can hold off on. I looked at zen with a blank expressions hiding all emotions. "Zen. Good evening." "(Y/N) are you going to the dance? If so i was wondering i-" I raised my hand cutting him off looking at him. "Yes I'm going. And i have a date already." I partially lied. "oh" He said disappointed looking away while rubbing the back of his neck. I nodded and started walking past him but stopped and looked at him from the side. "You shouldn't be smoking cigarettes. I thought you quit. Take better care of yourself" i said walking away hearing him mumbling. I sighed sadly to myself laying a hand on my chest feeling my rapid heart beat. "I thought i was over him. I guess not" i sighed and continued my shopping.

ZEN POV

"I miss you" I mumble as she walked away from me and around the corner. "She still cares. I will not give up on her or us. I know I missed up but I'll make it right before it's to late!." I said to myself pumping myself up. I pulled out my phone calling Luciel. "Eh-lo! You reached the fast and reliable 707!! How can i help you this beautiful bright day!" Luciel said. I sighed at his ridiculous self introduction. "Seriously Luciel? Why can't you just say hello like a normal person." "Welll....I'm not normal! Im from space!" I sighed rubbing my temples. "I don't have time for this. Can you find information on (y/n) date to the dance." I asked quietly. "(Y/n) huh? You still not over her?" "How could you say such a thing!" Frowned getting upset and angry at his stupid comment. "Relax. It's just over the internet and news is that your really happy and is in a good spot with that one female...what's her name? Mobley? Nick? Mike?" I sighed knowing exactly what he means and who he is talking about. "Her name is Nadia. We are only friends and co-workers. Nothing more. Plus she only likes my money and looks. (Y/n) likes me. Me as a person." I said smiling at the memories that I shared and have with (y/n).

" By the way Those are GUY NAMES!!!"

"Shit..sorry what was that? I wasn't listening. Kinda boring and long story. Gotta go! Cha!!"

Luciel said while hanging up I frowned looking at my phone. "Ass-hat!" I sighed and continued my shopping thinking and missing (y/n).

"I really hope he helps me out. Nobody will come between us. With my looks and beautiful face and hair i can accomplish anything!"
"AHHHHHHHHHH" I jump noticing group of women standing by yelling and screaming, cheering for me.
"Yes!!! Zen you'll win!!!"
Oops. Said it out loud. I rubbed the back of my neck embarrassed at my actions. My cheeks started to go pink as i smiled at the ladies embarrassed.

Hey guys! Sorry for being late. I been having work issues and trying to get my Christmas shopping done. Please inform me of anything you like or dislike and i wanna know how to make it more interesting for you!! I hope you guys like it!