BINABASA MO ANG

Chasing The Ending

Romansa

C H A S I N G T H E E N D I N G --- Nang dahil sa isang trahedya, napilitan si Jayce na mabuhay ng nag-iisa. Pinili niyang umiwas sa mga kaibigan upang hindi na sila madamay sa gulo na kanyang kinasangkutan. Ngunit may isang tao na pinaniwalaan...

#chase #friendship #giveup #promise #tears

Prologue

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                                              The cold wind blew right through my face but I can't feel the coldness of it. I just can't feel anything. 
                          Everything seems so dull as I stare at the wide green field of our school. Isang hakbang ang ginawa ko. Isa pa at nilingon ko ang nasa baba ko.
                          Nothing. Walang tao dahil walang pasok ngayon. A perfect timing to end a worthless life. No one will know my ending as they don't know I've existed.

                          Maybe, they knew all along, they just pretend that they don't.
                          I managed to fake a smile and still, I can't feel that I'm faking it. 
                          Maybe, I'm numb. 
                          Maybe, I'm tired.
                          Maybe, I'm lost.
                          Gusto ko lang matapos ang lahat ng 'to. Funny how I felt my tears escaping my eyes when I couldn't feel anything at all.
                          Sunod-sunod na patak sa kinatatayuan ko. Tila gumagawa ng bakas na nandito ako ngayon at patunay na nabuhay ako sa mundong ito.
                          "I'm sorry." I uttered as I stepped once more to the edge of the rooftop.
                          "I'm sorry." Isa pang usal kasabay ng isa pang hakbang.
                          "I'm sorry!" Sa wakas ay garalgal ko. Ipinikit ko ang mga mata ko at dinama ang ilan pang pagbuhos ng aking mga luha. 
                          Walang tigil. 
                          At nagtataka ako kung bakit hindi nauubos ang mga luhang 'to. I've been crying for almost the past two years. Every single day after that tragedy, I've been regretting that freakin' day that broke me and made me lose myself.
                          Sino nga ba ako? 
                          "Sorry..." Patuloy akong umiyak habang dahan-dahang lumalapit sa gilid ng rooftop. Ilan pang hakbang ay nasa gilid na ako. I closed my eyes as I let my tears fall for the last time.
                          "Please, forgive me..." I whispered as I let myself fall. And for once, after two years of living like a dead man, naramdaman kong buhay ako. That very moment when I decide to end my life, I feel alive.
                          Naramdaman ko na lang ang muling pagbuhos ng luha ko, hindi dahil sa sakit at lungkot. But because of happiness and relief. It feels surreal. I can't believe that I can still feel happiness after that tragedy. Maybe, He is really good. He let me feel this once more after all the things I've done. 
                          Thank You...
                          And when I'm just about to let myself lose it completely, I felt my right arm being grasped tightly.
                          "What the hell do you think you're doing?!"
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