Crimson Idol

Eight

Us (Acoustic) - James Bay

That next week was the most beautiful of my life. He called me in the morning while he made coffee and breakfast, and after lunch to tell me how good it was. He called me before interviews and after, of course he never knew what I was doing, but that didn't matter, because he called me when I got home and before I went to bed, and in the middle of the night when he couldn't sleep, he called me to tell me that his neighbors were obnoxiously loud. I couldn't see him every day, but that Tuesday, we met in The Hallway at seven in the morning because we just couldn't wait until ten, and then Mark complained about how early it was for anybody to be awake and made us coffee and brownies while we sat in the back and watched each other talk. And every time, he brought me the first flower he saw on his way to me. Today, it was yellow, yellow as his shirts, and his kind face carries a smile all day long, until it is eight at night. Mark watches us all day with a sly smile and a knowing look, and all the way from the front of the shop, I see him nod at me while he cleans the tabletops, and when Harry leaves he looks over to me from the other side of the counter as I take a seat on the high chairs in front of him

"He doesn't know, does he" Mark says, while aligning the salt and pepper shakers and wiping the counter clean

"He doesn't" I shake my head, the jar of cookies is left open when I grab it to take one out

"Aren't you gonna tell him?" Mark asks, being as self-righteous as he always is

"He didn't tell me" I say, nervously binging on the cookie. Just the thought of revealing myself to Harry frightens the living shit out of me

"Leila" he pushes "Don't play that game with me"

"I know Mark" I whine "I just- don't know"

"Do you really think he won't ever find out?" Mark asks

"I'll quit music" I said, biting on my cookie

"Now that's just irrational" He chuckled "Love, you can't build it on lies"

"Mark stop being right"

"I'm not telling you to tell him now, but if you aren't gonna tell him, then leave" He said, looking me in the eye without a smile

"I can't leave" I tell him "Its Harry, Mark. It's literally Harry"

"You can't keep lying to him" Mark insists, as he always does, and I know he's right, I know I cannot lie to Harry forever, I know its unrighteous, but thing is – I'm not gonna have him forever

"He'll think I'm using him" I say

"Well if he finds out from someone else, there will be no way to convince him of otherwise" Correct, again, my friend

"No. I can't" I whine "I just can't"

"Remember when your father left your mother?" Mark says, I slowly look up to him and nod hesitantly "He left because he didn't love her anymore, he told her that, that might've been the most righteous thing he's ever done" He says "But you know if he had lied, he would've been a cheater. Mind you, he is a cheater, but he isn't a liar too. I know you're not using him, but hell is filled with good intentions, Leia"

I knew Mark was right, but I was still shaken up by his mention of my parent's divorce. To say that it was the most excruciatingly painful time of my life is an understatement, but I know he's right. What I am more worried about right now, though, is that I'm gonna end like my mum.

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Caitlin called me three hours after I got home, 11pm, and squealed for three minutes before I could make out a word of what she said

"I'm too young to lose my hearing, Caitlin, what the fuck"

"Okay okay okay, oh my god, okay" She starts "I have AMAZING news oh my god okay"

"Yes?" I ask teasingly

"Okay okay, you're not ready" She says "Let me read it from my laptop" She gets up from her place and I hear sounds of things falling over and her rapid footsteps before she starts again "Miss Caitlin Alvord, we would like to invite Miss Leila Valentina Adams to perform at this year's show of the American Music Awards on October 9th Microsoft Theater in Los Angeles, California. We at the American Music Awards would be honored to have such a young and loved artist preform, please get back to us as soon as possible."

"HOLY SHIT" I screamed "WHAT THE FUCK" I said "ARE YOU FUCKING SHITTING ME"

"NO IM NOT" Caitlin squealed "YOU REALLY FUCKING DID IT LEIA"

"OH MY FUCK HOLY SHIT" I shout "THIS IS INSANE" I tell her "DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHO'S GONNA BE THERE!!!"

"EVERYONE" She shouted back

Everyone.

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Author's note: 

Short chapter, I KNOW! I'll update soon promise :) 

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