My brother's best friend

Chapter Seven - The Concert

"Are you ready to go?" Toby screams from downstairs. "I am there in a second." I scream back. I am still standing in front of my mirror and I don't know if I am ready to show the world my 'new me'. I really do look completely different. A friend of Toby showed me how to put makeup on and how I should do my hair and I look like a Christmas tree. I am wearing a black light dress with a jeans jacket and sneakers. My hair is curled and I put on decent makeup.

I take my small bag and go downstairs. "Woah." Toby says as he sees me. "What?" I ask scared. "I never though that you would look this gorgeous." he says and obviously can't take his eyes of me. "I don't feel good like this. It feels so unlike me." I say. "I think that you look more like you than ever. You finally look like a nice girl and not like girl that is going to kill you if you look at her in the wrong way." he says and laughs. "I look like a nice girl?" I ask and smile shyly. "You do." Toby responds and hugs me. "Okay. We really need to go now. We need to pick up the others and they are already waiting." he says and we leave.

"Wow baby. I nearly didn't recognize you. You look stunning. Actually you are the most gorgeous girl I know now." Timmy says and turns me around. I laugh and thank him for his compliment. The others are amazed as well and I start to feel more and more comfortable. As we arrive at the arena I start to get really nervous. I wanted to see Shawn so bad lately and now I will even see him perform. "Are you okay?" Toby asks as we get into the building. "Yes. I am fine." I say and smile.

As we enter the arena there are people everywhere. Mostly young girls. Oh wow. Shawn could really have everyone. "Uhm there has to be his manager Andrew somewhere to take us to our places." Toby says and looks around. "Why do have special places?" I ask. "Shawn wanted ud to have the best view ever." Timmy responds. "Hello. Are you Timmy, Jack, Taylor, Toby and Jonah?" a very very huge and muscular security guide asks. "Yes we are." my brother responds and shows his ID. Then we have to follow the security guard.

We are standing right in front of the stage on your own platform that isn't near to the fans. We have our own space and I kind of feel uncomfortable to be this near when Shawn is performing. "Have you ever been to one of Shawn's concerts?" I ask Toby. He shakes his head. "I never had time and I wasn't able to take you with me so no." he responds and smiles sadly. I didn't even know that Shawn was my brothers best friend so I don't think that this is such a problem. 

Suddenly the lights go out and a dramatic music starts to play. I have never been to. a concert either so this is very fascinating for me. On the huge screen on stage appears a kind of short movie that shows Shawn and his greatest moments. My heart starts to beat quicker. This feeling of Love speeds through my body and makes me feel like I am high. "Oh my god." I moan quietly as the blood streamy through my veins quicker than ever. I start to feel dizzy. Like I am going to collapse right now. I lean on my brother's arm and try to breath. 

"Are you okay? Should we go out? Baby? What's up?" Toby asks scared. "No. I just need you to hold me because otherwise I will fall down." I answer and try to smile. Toby puts his arm around me and looks at me scared. "I am okay. I just had a little overwhelming moment I guess." I say and try to make Toby relax a little bit. He nods and sights. I wanted to say something else but Shawn came on stage. 

Shawn plays the first song 'There's nothing holding me back' and the crowd goes wild. I don't think Shawn is going to recognizes us because he would have to look down the stage and he is just focused on what's in front of the stage. I don't know why but I am kinda glad that he won't see me. I don't think I am ready to talk to him and pretend like nothing happened. 

We really enjoy the concert. Everyone is singing loudly and having fun. Smiling faces everywhere and I have never seen the boys being so close. I think it is really important to them to be kind of together and there for each other. My brother's friend have a rough time behind them. I know it is kinda fucked up but they are all just friends because they have a really horrible past. They know how hard life can be so they understand each other. Toby though never talks about his problems when I am around. The other do. I know all their secrets and bad thoughts. Sometimes this really tears me down. Toby always says that he doesn't want to tell them the entire truth about our parents and relatives so they just know half of the Storie but though Toby and I have the most fucked up past.

"Do you like him?" Toby asks smiling. "I like his songs and the meaning behind it." I scream above the loud music. "Yeah me too. Though they are more like girly go to songs. I am surprised you like them." Toby says and nods proudly. "Well Mozard can get really boring after some time." I say and smile. Toby pulls me closer and we dance together to the music. 

The concert is coming to an end and Shawn plays his last song. It is a slower one with a deep meaning behind it and Toby and I are dancing arm in arm. My brother is a really good dancer. That was one of the only thing our dad showed us. Dancing. He loved to dance. When he danced he was free and happy and then he was nice to us. Sadly this was something really rare but though Toby and I are brilliant dancers now. 

"You know I really love you." Toby whispers in my ear making my eyes blurry. "I know. I love you too. So much." I say and kiss him on the cheek while a small tear makes it's way out of my eyes. Toby presses my body thigh on mine and holds me close. We don't have such moments pretty often but whenever we do it is magical. Toby and I are the best team in the world. We just have each other so this has to work. I am so glad to call him my older brother. No one else in this huge wide world has such a good brother like I do.