The place was so packed, almost the whole school in it. The music was too loud to blast your eardrum. For all the people in here, this party was so swagged and matched the YOLO rules.
Everyone seemed to be enjoying meanwhile, I was wishing the ground could swallow me.I'm wondering why did I come? I should have crawled on a sofa with pizza and chocolate mountains next to me.
I should have ignored Jessie's invitation to join.
I sat under the stairs in an almost isolated place crossing my fingers to be unseen but I am too famous to be acknowledged easily. Who doesn't know Emma, The current cheer-captain ?!
They were all coming over to greet and to chat with me, but I can see what's underneath their fake friendly masks.
They wanted to analyze how do I cope with my crisis: The breakup with Luke.
I can see their compassionate looks and their soft treatment as if I was a sharply pointed glass.
Well, I'm shattered, but what I have observed shivered me more. Luke was rocking it with a girl.
At that moment the ground was shaking beneath me and the vision got blurred. I was about to collapse, but I got my act together and ran outside the house and recoiled under an empty tree.
Overthinking sneaked to my head in the worst ways ever, so I started sobbing while crossing my hands around my knees.
Then I heard a calm and soft voice asking if I was OK. It was him. I just raised my eyes and stuttered with a shaky voice saying: "yes, thank you "
He responded faintly: "I know that there's an issue, speak up! "
I made an eye contact with him saying: "My problem is you. You gave up on me so easily, breaking all the promises we have made."
he arched his eyebrows wondering and before he speaks I interrupted " Don't say useless justifications. If there were true feelings you would haven't let me go."
A moment of silence was in between then I continued "Falling for you was a huge mistake ."
He said to me while gazing at the emptiness: " I assure you what we had was real "
I immediately shouted "If it was, then look into my eyes and say it. Did you see the galaxies in my eyes? Did you notice how I get cranky under stress? Or how I always tied my hair because I hated the breeze's manipulation with it? A pain aching in my chest currently cause I noticed such stuff to you. This feeling, the one-sided love's damaging. You spoiled me. You turned me into the cheer captain that's running out of her cheer ."
I breathed deeply saying "If I had a wish right now. It will be moving on. To be the happy Emma again. The version of me before we met"
He replied "With you, the choices were either dignity or love, dignity wins"
