This One's For You ☆ JENLISA

After All These Years

JENNIE'S POV

I saw you today and I noticed that your blonde hair changed. And I see you still have that big brown eyes and your smile... your smile's turned a little softer. I wonder why. And that's when I saw a girl behind you looking all so gorgeous. Is she the one now? I'm not prepared.. All the things that passed us just all came back to me like a wind blowing so hard. Why?

Just when I was about to turn my back to left the facility, you suddenly made your way to me. Goosebumps. You smiled and said your hello and I tried my best to stay still. I see you still have this effect on me.. We talked for awhile and the girl you're with whispered something to you then that's when you bid your goodbye to me. Everything was so sudden that I didn't noticed you're already outside, walking to your car. Sigh. I guess I never would have the chance to tell you..

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I'm here at Irene's party. Everyone in the squad's invited, including you. And once again, you are with that girl. I saw you talking to Jisoo unnie when I overheard what you two were talking about. I see, so Mina is the name of your new girlfriend. You seem happy, you really do. I wonder, did you have your eyes closed when you first kissed her? Does she kiss you like I kissed you? Does her heart beat everytime you're near her? Cause me? I do. I still do.

Bestfriend. That's all we are, right Lisa? We were bestfriend for god knows how long until one day I found myself staring at you lovingly not knowing why my heart beats so fast like it'll explode in any time.

No, actually it was at the night of the prom where we're both drunk and wasted. I still remember that night. We were laughing at something that caught our attention when you suddenly held my chin for me to face you. "Jen, I wonder what would a first kiss feels. They say it's magical and everything." You told me while looking at my lips. I hit your arm while giggling. "You stupid. You'd only feel that way if you love the person you're kissing. Like, how will you fe--" You didn't gave me the chance to finish what I was saying because you kissed me. You fucking kissed me! I pushed you away, glaring at you for what you did. We stayed silent for I don't know how long when you said something that made us both blush. "Ah! I see now. It really is magical." I was startled. What the hell are you talking about? Aish.. Right then, I started feeling something towards you not letting myself hold it back. And just when I was about to tell you what I feel, you told me you were dating the girl you met a few months ago. Why? Just why??

You had your first heartbreak. All those times you were devastated, I stayed on your side not minding all the pain I feel when I would hear you at 3am, crying your heart out, calling out her name. You thought I didn't know about these, right? But I do. I cried with you all those times. I cried because I know deep down my heart you can never give back the love that I'm feeling towards you.

Right now, I'm sittin' on my bed thinking all the "what if's" of mine. What if I told you that I never loved the boy I dated because it's the only way for me to fill up the empty space in my heart when you started dating someone else? What if I told you that I love you, that night when you asked me if I really ever loved someone? What if I told you that after all these years, you're still the one? But no.. I didn't told you that. I would never tell you.

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Lame, sorry. These past few days I lost my will to write xx I'll make it up next update.
Btw. What's your favorite song? :)