I'm laying in the snow. Seems like I fell from a two-story apartment building. The sky looking pitch black but there were still some clouds. My ears are ringing...I'm coughing out a little bit of blood. Damn, this hurts so fucking bad. Am I dying? I don't think I deserved this. I mean I've done some bad stuff but this isn't the punishment I deserve. At least don't let me die here...please. Maybe a nice bed or even better...in the arms of a loved one. Please..someone, hear my cry.
Who was I kidding? I was so paralyzed of shock, fear and regret nothing came out of my mouth but tiny breaths of air. I can't move...I can't even reach my jean pockets. I need my phone to make one last call.
Wait...I hear something. It's faint...horns? Singing? I blinked slowly and saw some lights coming close. An angel? Maybe someone heard my cry. I'm happy. I started to cry but its so cold out here my tears will freeze up. Apparently, those lights were car headlights. I heard a car door slammed shut. I hear a female voice calling in distress and yelling for help. The streets were empty and no one was out here. The women looked at me and held my hand. I flinched in pain; She looked up at the building then back at me. She was a total stranger but she was so sweet to stop and help me. She said some words but I couldn't hear her well. All I got was "How did this happen? An attempt of suicide?"
No, as messed up as I am I wouldn't want to do that. I don't love myself but...I don't hate myself enough to do that. I want to live..even if my life is unfair and nothing has been going my way since high school ended. After those golden days..dirt has fallen upon me.
I don't get it.
The women took out her phone and dialed 911. After that, she looked at me and I saw the worry and care she had for me. Even if she was a total stranger. This was amazing...I'm about to be saved. A second chance at life I should say.
