find my way back.

i miss him

Kenzie's POV

4 days later..

9 am

i wake up with a tear stained face and my hair everywhere.

i was a mess.

i couldn't think straight, my mind was everywhere.

how could they? how could HE?

i laid in my bed, completely paralyzed, it hurt to move, to breathe.

my heart ached at every thought of it.

i could never imagine what had happened.

it's been 3 days since i last spoke to him, the fans don't know about any of this.

i want to talk to him, the boys have begged for me to, but i can't.. it hurts.

he cheated on me, this pain is something new.

hayes cheated on me.

he didn't hesitate, nor look sorry.

was i not good enough? did i not satisfy him? was he unhappy? what did she have that i didn't? why me?.. again?

i've been in bed ever since i found out, my phone keeps buzzing from the group chat, that includes hayes. i read a few messages here and there, and i know he's trying to 'explain' to me what happened.

but there's no explanation of you and my best friend we're in bed together at a party.

cameron, carter, and the rest of the old mc boys knew about this and knew she was planning on sleeping with him, but took him anyways.

i knew they always despised me..

hayes even called my house phone... WTF DID I GET ONE?💀

logan and jake both called and texted, as well as the wdw family, everyone has contacted me, i'm not sure how they all know.. but they do.

my head began to ache, so i decided to get some food, i've eaten maybe the maximum of 3 times thought this.

hayes's stuff is still here, it hurts, everything smells like him.

i'm not gonna lie, i've been sleeping with his hoodies more now, i cry in them too.

i miss him but i hate him.

i walk out my room, which i haven't left in 4 days and saw my brother's watching netflix on my couch.

oh ok💀

"kenzie!" they jumped up and hugged me, with much shock and excitement

"hey" my voice was very raspy.

"talk to him" that was surprisingly

"ok..." i gave in, what was talking to hayes gonna do? right?