Entry 10
| J a n u a r y – 8ᵗʰ |
From constant tenacious wins,
to finally breaking this solid streak of mine.
It all came down to this.
The one true challenge I so hastily anticipated.
The test that could finally prove I'm truthfully worthy.
In the end,
the overwhelming pressure to succeeding,
without any ounce of failure,
has finally caught onto me.
Leaving me to a new realization.
Not everything goes the direction you desire. Especially when you're forcing the much expected outcome.
Where did I go wrong?
I keep questioning.
The only logical answer I could think of is,
I've always been too comfortable getting my
way. The constant wins that made Father approve of me.
Now—.
I was nothing more than a blunder.
A let down.
A mere failure.
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That outcome really turned out the way it did, didn't it?
The passing weeks have now become the past, and I'm still in the same loophole. Rethinking repetitively over that night. The outcome that shouldn't have manifested into this reality has now become a replay of multiple phrases that could have potentially changed it, or at least altered it.
That starless night was an irreparable mistake filled with so many absorbing thoughts. Now my lifestyle has become different in a way that I thought would benefit me for the better. That my frustration, and boredom could finally be lifted.
That I would finally be able to enjoy an average life.
All the assignments that were lined up, ready to get completed, have officially been stamped for cancellation. As for my assigned schedules crowding my daytime routine, they're officially gone.
Non-existent.
Empty to the last brimful line.
Everything has been readjusted leaving it completely blank—, well almost. As far as I could remember, this is the first time my schedule has been so empty. With absolutely no assignments. The only thing keeping it from a blank page at the moment would be my Academic routine. In which I have returned since the holiday break is officially over.
How do I feel from the sudden lifestyle switch?
At the beginning, I felt partly free. Even with all the strings attached to my injured limbs. My heart still deeply aches from my own indecisiveness. I sigh. Father still expects the top rank now that my only focus should be this cursed Academy. Especially when it's my last year here before I move onto BEU.
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