English girl (squeal to my irishboy)

Letters

I passed Emma the black folder as she asked.I was falling apart but I had to be strong,I had one hour left with her.This could be the last hour of my life with her.

"Right theres something I want you to do for me"Emma said opening the black folder.

"Anything"I said trying to hold back the tears.

"If,If I dont make it, I have wrote these letters for people and I want you to give them to them.Niall please dont cry.Hey hey I love you you no that dont you"Emma said welling up.I was in floods of tears,  I put my head on the bed.

"I dont want to lose you"I said through the tears.

"Oi Im not going anywhere with out a fight.I promise you I will try and get through the op."Emma said.A small tear roled down her face.

"Do you want me to ring Heather everyone?"I asked still crying.

"No.If this is my last hour I want to spend it with you.I wish Katy and Antony was here.I wish I could have one last cuddle."Emma said she started to choak up.That moment Liam poked his head round the door.

"Katy needs a feed I think"Liam said.His smiled dropped from his face when he saw me.Shit I had forgot Liam was outside with the twins.Emmas dad must of dropped them off he said he would.With all thats gone off I had forgot Liam was outside.

"Liam can you bring them in"I asked getting up to help.

"Sure"Liam said.

"Im sorry I had forgot you was outside"I said picking up Antony.

"It fine I thought you had.Is anything okay?"Liam asked just before he opened the door into Emmas room.

"No not really,Il explain later"I said.Emma didnt want anyone knowing and I was going to respect her wishes.Liam gave Katy to Emma.

"Il wait outside"He said smiling.

"Thanks mate"I said as I place Antony in Emmas other arm.Tears filled my eyes as I saw what could be the last time of my family all together.I kissed Emma on the head.

"I love you"I said.

"I love you to."

The doctor came in.I was fed up of him coming in.Everytime he came in he had bad news.No no.I couldnt blame him it wasnt his fault.

"Im sorry its time"He said.I put my head in my hands.

"Hey"Emma said.I looked up.

"what"I said as she passed me over the twins.

"I love you so much never forget that"Emma said as the doctor got everything ready.

"I love you"I said trying to smile.I had to be strong for her.

"Remeber what I said about the folder please"Emma said before she was going out the doors.

"I will."

"I love you"She shouted through the tears.

"I love you"I shouted back.That was it she went through the doors.I sank to the floor.Liam came rushing in.My head was in my hands.I was terrifide that was the last  time I would see her.

"Wheres Emma going"Liam asked concerend.

"For an operation"

"But shes not"Liam said bending down putting his arm around me.

"They had to do it either way she could"I could finish he sentace.

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It was a 5 hour operation.When I managed to hold back the tears I called everyone they all came rushing in.I told them all what had happened.We sat in Emmas room.Then I looked over at the folder.

"Emma wanted me to do one thing"I begun.Everyone looked upI grabbed the folder.

"She wrote letters for us all incase she died."I said opening the folder.

"I want to read mine"Hannah said through the tears.

"Me to"Heather said looking up.Heather was sat on the floor cuddled into Tom.I passed the letters out.We all opened them and begun to read them. 

I broke down in the first sentence of mine.Mine read................................................................

Dear my beautiful huband ;)

well boyfriend.I dont know where to start.If your reading this then then the worst must of happened.Im so sorry.I really wish I was with you.I want you to know I love you so much.

Remeber the first day we met, well I knew then I had met the sexy Irish man of my dreams.You have been my rock when I was low.I will miss you so much.Im going to tell you somthing I never have before....

When you were on tour everyday I listened to your cds.I think I knew every word to almost every westlife song.Also I had your audion song  as my ring tone while you was on tour

You are the most romantic sexy person I know.Remeber the night I surprised you at your concert.I rememebr over hearing your and Liam on about me.At that moment in time I couldnt focas on the fact that you was in your boxers or that the fact you said I think Im in love.People say love at first sight is a myth but I know its true.

The misscarige broke my heart,I dont know what I would of done without you.Also can you remeber when we went to music awards and a fan had a banner saying we should get married  I always hoped you would prepose.I was never happier when I had you Katy and Antony with me.

Right be strong.I love you so much you was my saviour.You are my irishboy.I could write forever about how much I love you but my hands hurting and you will be back here from tour soon.

Please never give up the music, I love you more than words can say.

You will be a brilliant dad.Remeber dont be to hard on Katy when she brings her first boyfriend home will you and dont be to hard on Antony when he eats your food. 

Love you alwaysxxxx 

ENGLISH GIRL XXXXXXXX

I broke down in tears again.I sat with Katy and Antony on me and cryed.After a while the doctor fianlly came in.

"Well"I said looking up.............................................................................................