Despondency

Chapter 6

Chapter 6
Blair's P.O.V
Oh my God. I just did that. I just kissed him. I just kissed Qwin. Then I walked away.

  Today was so weird. First I wake up early, which I never do. Then I start drawing a picture of Qwin! So random. When my mom asked me to go get Qwin I didn't think much of it, but I thought I'd sit and wait for him and maybe we would go to the library or something.

   The doors might be thick, but the glass in the window isn't. Through the four panes I could hear Qwin telling my mom about his childhood. It broke my heart, but when he mentioned that I saved him, everything in me broke, and I couldn't hold it in any more.

  After my sob, they found me clutching Gerard and crying my eyes out into his fur. Poor cat was confused. I noticed Qwin was crying too,and we both sat on the couch. I let go of Gerard and hugged Qwin instead. That's when Qwin thanked me.

  When we went downstairs... well, I mean it's not my fault he still manages to look cute when he cries. When I cry it's an ugly bawling instead.

   I didn't sleep well last night. I was freaking out, but around five this morning I fell asleep and I just woke up at seven. Currently running on two hours of sleep and it's not helping me get over my anxiety of going out to the kitchen where I heard Qwin go.

  Finally, I decide on just acting like nothing happened since my mom's out there. I get dressed and look in my mirror. Reflected, I see a girl in a white crop top, black leggings,white vans and the biggest dark circles I've ever seen under her eyes. It'll work for now if I dip into my secret stash of foundation and cover up the circles.

  I walk out of my room and into the closet. Well,crap maybe I do need to go back to sleep. Wrong door. I walk out of the room and into the living room. Taking a deep breath, I walk into the kitchen. Qwin's sitting at the counter talking to my mom, who is across the island cooking bacon and toast. I sit down next to Qwin and my mom immediately puts a plate of toast,bacon, and yogurt in front of me. I don't like eggs.

  "So Qwin was just telling me-" My heart leaps to my throat. He wouldn't tell her about that, would he? "- that he's lactose intolerant. Says he didn't know until a year ago because his dad never had dairy products anyways. He got milk at school from the free milk crate and threw up. Every time he tried to eat dairy products he would throw up. So,hey at least we know there's real dairy in the school food!" My mom jokes.

   Qwin laughs and God his laugh is amazing...
(Time jump to after school)
We're walking home together and at this point the kiss has completely escaped my mind because I'm thinking of all the homework we got in English, ugh.

  Well, I forget about it until Qwin takes my free hand and pulls me into the woods.

  "Qwin? What the hell are you do-" I yell before getting a mouth full of leaves. I start looking
down so as not to trip.Suddenly the running stops. I look up and Qwin is grinning,looking around a clearing in the woods. It's beautiful. The trees' leaves have turned colors in this spot, there's the most amazing post in the middle, filled with koi fish. There are flower patches scattered around in the soft grass, and I start grinning like an idiot, too.

  Qwin grabs my other hand and pulls me into a kiss. He breaks it off after a minute, panting.

  "Don't run away this time. Please?" He asks.

  "Never."

  I called my mom and told her Qwin and I went over to a friend's house, and we spent all day in that clearing,kissing and talking.

"Hey, you have swimming, right?" I ask.

  "Yeah, why?"

  "Let's go swimming! You have your suit,don't you?" In answer he stripped to his trunks and hops in. I get out of my clothes, revealing my bikini. I see Qwin staring with his mouth open. The entire time thinking about how just a few days ago if someone told myself I would be kissing my crush, I would have slapped them, thinking they were insane.

  Oh my god! Cold hand s on my back! Ah, I'm falling!

SPLASH!

"QWIIIIIIINNNNNNNN!!!!!"

We have a good time messing around in the water. Then my phone vibrates.

"Hello?"
"Hey honey, it's time to come home." She sounded crushed.
  "Ok mom. Is everything alright?"
  "Are you with Qwin?"
  "Yeah... in both senses."
   "Now that I figured out myself. But seriously, bring him home. Now." She hangs up.

"Is everything ok? Blair!" I had started pulling on my clothes as fast as I could.

  "We need to go. Get your stuff on. You were in track, we're gonna run."

  We sprint back home.