'I wish that I could tell you that you're all that I want'
Nearly two years after her boyfriend left her with no warning, she began to fill the hole in her heart, slowly forgetting him and the memories she shared with him.
Well. That was until he sh...
"Stay with me," the boy sighed out, leaning back into his seat.
"You can't be serious jaemin yo-"
"No I'm being serious, stay with me. Don't go back just yet, stay for a while?" He said, encasing the girls hand within his.
"What are you going on about jaemin ?" Jihye questioned, tilting her head slightly.
"I want you to stay in Seoul with me, you can stay in the dorms or with Hyuna somewhere; I just want you here, I need you here. I don't want to loose you again," you could see the sincerity in his eyes, a slight gloss coating over them. He took a deep breathe in before continuing, "Ive spoken with Hyuna already I know you're off university so just stay during your break, you can go back if you want I just need you with me for a bit"
After everything she had been though, she couldn't help but feel sorry for jaemin. He didn't have much choice between what happened with them.
"I can but that doesn't mean things will go back to normal Jae," she spoke softly, lowering her head at her words. "We aren't kids anymore, we can't pretend that what's happened didn't happen. You're an idol now and I'm in university. We both have lives and I need you to understand that. You have fans, people who look upto you, are you sure you're ready for me aswell ?"
"Jihye, look at me," he lifted her chin slightly using his hand. "I love you, I never stopped loving you. You mean everything to me, why do you think I stayed in contact with Hyuna ? Why I always and sure you were okay ? I love you with all my heart and hell if that means I have to give up this idol life for you I would do it in a heartbeat" jaemin spoke with certainty, he knew he wasn't going to be manipulated this time. As Jihye said before, they weren't kids anymore, they aren't as naive as they once were.
All she could do was sit there in shock, her mouth hung open.
"Think about it okay ?" He questioned. "Go stay with Hyuna for a while and get back to me, you know where to find me"
Before she had any time to question him, his hand melted away from hers as he learnt forward, leaving a lingering kiss on her forehead before placing his mask back on and sliding out the cafe.
'I never stopped loving you'
That was the one thought that had seeded its way into her mind. It was stuck on repeat, playing over and over again. All this time she thought he had just forgotten about her, that he had just moved on- but he was stuck in the same predicament as her.
The ring of her phone cut off her trail of thoughts.
"Hello ?"
"Hey Jihye it's me, you need me to come Get you ?"
"Erm, I think I'm gonna Take a walk first, clear my mind, But I promise I'll ring you right after Okay ?"
"Okay, be safe gorgeous. I'll see You soon, love you "
"Love you too, bye"
She couldn't help but sigh and rub her face before getting up and heading towards the nearest park.
This had become another habit of hers; walking. She just wanted to walk away from everything, even if she knew she couldn't, it gave her this sense of freedom. It was a way of clearing her thoughts that she had become accustomed to, at the beginning she had liked being on her own, there was too much going on in her head for anyone else to understand. So she just walked. She walked and walked for hours and hours to find some sense of purpose and meaning.
From the wind whistling in her ears, to the slight sway of the branches, it all helped her collect her thoughts and relax.
From seeing him on the telly that first day till know, she'd never had the chance to think about how she felt. Of course she was sad and angry, but she couldn't help but feel a pang if guilt after hearing his story. Because of her, he had to leave everything the way he did and she couldn't help but feel responsible for the entire mess.
The only thing she really knew was that, no matter what,
She never stopped loving Na Jaemin.
And she didn't think she ever could stop.
——————————— Hellooooo again everyone ! Sorry for the short chapter but I just wanted to get something out because I feel really and about not updating so regularly I've not been feeling great these past few weeks and have been diagnosed with an issue in my chest, which is basically putting pressure on my lungs and causing me quite a bit of pain. I've been so busy trying to sort that out and get through college that I've just completely forgotten to write this book or drive for that matter!x I know this chapter isn't my best but please try to enjoy it and bear with me for a little but longer❤️ Also thank you so much for getting this book to #1 in nctjaemin it means the absolute world to me!!! Be sure to vote for this chapter and comment Till next time ✌🏼
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