; My Favorite Redhead || Andrew Siwicki

1; Videos

monday; 10:35 pm

"What're you wearing?!", said shane, doing a double take at andrew's outfit; causing him to laugh. i laughed as well, loving how his laugh got me to giggle as well.

if you don't know who i'm talking about, prepare for a story! andrew siwicki is the second best (number one best for me) redhead i've came across from youtube. he inspires me to simply.. breathe and be yourself. it might not make sense but hey, we all never make sense sometimes.

"hey babe!", jeffree star exclaimed. shane greeted him as well. if you couldn't tell already, i was watching their video; the secret world of jeffree star. not sponsored by the way!

i sighed, sipping my coffee in a starbucks thermos. i really wanted to meet him.. but it was an extremely rare chance.

i pauses the video and went to my instagram page.

@siwickiluv was my username and it also read, 30 posts, 3,120 followers. i was happy at how much my profile had grown.

i kept my profile as a account for andrew-related things and edits.

i sighed once more. i'm not sure why, but i suddenly felt down. i decided to take a picture of andrew from google, and post with a caption:

"hey guys, it's me again. i'm sorry for not being as active! i'm currently feeling a bit sad, but seeing this particular picture of my favorite redhead made me smile. i hope he makes you smile as well. i love you all." - siwickiluv

feeling satisfied, i clicked post and exited the app and turned off my phone. it automatically turned on again, my home screen starting to fill with likes, and supportive comments.

i lied down on my bed, snuggling into my comforter and turning away from my electronics.

i heard my bedroom door slowly open. my mom came in and said, "christie? are you feeling okay?", i turned over to look at her and replied, "i'm okay mom. why?" she looked quite nervous.
she sat down at the edge of my bed and looked at me. her next words shocked me.

"you're starting school next week."

my eyes widened. "mom! i can't go back to school!" she frowned and told me it'll be just fine. i slowly began to panic and mom noticed. she started reassuring me, telling me i'll be prepared for school. i dreaded school. i didn't want to be in a building with sweaty, hormonal teenagers or just people in general.

i could be at home, in my room, not bothering anyone or anything. however, i didn't want to let my mom down. i just.. didn't want her to feel disappointed in me. i sighed and agreed. she smiled and said we'd go shopping for supplies on wednesday. "are you going to eat dinner tonight?" she asked.

i shook my head and her smile slightly fell. technically, i didn't have an eating disorder, but i just never really had an appetite for food. yeah, i did get hungry and yes, i'd eat. but as of tonight, i wasn't hungry at all.

"well", she caved in, "at least sleep soon okay? and eat breakfast tomorrow. i love you, christie." i grinned goofily and told her i loved her the most. mom chuckled and left the room. i layed back down and slowly, slowly fell asleep.

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hello! i hope u guys enjoyed the first chapter- oh who am i kidding. nobody will ever read this book and actually like it. huhu. sad.