i've always struggled with my sexuality. mostly because of my family and also society. but it really shouldn't be a struggle. making sentences word by word was easy but the words that needed to come out of my mouth never came. i fell and i rose. i stopped and i went. my thoughts and emotions never fazed me but people did surprisingly. maybe we were meant to not hurt ourselves but for others to hurt us. life is weird. i could stop breathing any second but i would be the first to know. so why can't i be the first to tell the world what i want to say. i don't need a voice but i need a sense of confidence. when i first joined 방탄소년단 i wanted peace with myself and with the fire that was tearing me inside. although it wasn't immediate, it's happening and i'm thankful. i could never be who i am or do what i do without them. i use that fire that's inside me to love army and to cherish their support and kindness. i also use it to love my band mates and to love my boyfriend hoseok. i use it as my passion for rapping and i use it a fuel to keep me going. i'm slowly turning my pain into love. love wins. love always wins...
