my mom came outside with a bowl of my favorite snack, 떡볶이 (tteok-bokki). the smell made me tear up remembering a time when i broke my leg at a basketball tournament and my mom brought 떡볶이 (tteok-bokki) to the hospital.
"yoongi, is something wrong? you've been a little off since you came here," she said in a concerned, motherly voice.
that was it for me. that was when i broke. tears slowly trickled down my face increasing speed as i realized what i was doing more. growing up in a christian household and a very influenced environment, i was sure my parents would never support me even if we never talked about it. i decided i was going to tell her right then and there and get it done with.
"mom i need to tell you something. it's pretty big so you need to promise me th-that you'll still l-lo-love me" i stammered choking back some tears.
"of course yoongi. i'll love you no matter what." she said with a soft smile.
my mother was a very soft spoken person even with her 사투리 (dialect) so as a child, seeing her raise her voice was the most frightening thing. i didn't want her to raise her voice at me when i told her. i took a deep breath and closed my eyes for a second before i told her. i could feel my heart beat gradually get faster.
"m-mom i'm bisexual. you can take all the time you need to think about this but answer one question. do you still love me?"
she was taken aback by my words and her eyes widened with not anger but surprise. i heard a small gasp and her hands were shaking the bowl of 떡볶이 (tteok-bokki). she didn't really know what to say at the moment so i let her calm down and told her to take deep breaths so she could talk whenever she's ready. she regained her calmness and opened her mouth to speak.
"yoongi, why didn't you tell me this earlier? you know i'll still love you. it'll just take me a while to comprehend but i promise i love you."
i immediately started sobbing. i let the tears i was holding back come out. all my emotions poured on to my mother's shoulder.
"thank you mom. i never thought you would accept me. but, dad?" i said my voice still shaky.
"i'll talk to him. he will come around to accepting you i'm sure. i don't want you to worry about anything else right now." she said reassuring me that i was okay.
"okay mom, i love you."
"i love you too yoonie boo"
author's note ~
i have to admit i cried a little while writing this because this story kinda depicts the version of my life that i wish i had and combines it with things that do happen in my life. i hope you're enjoying it and please vote! thank you :)
