I've Fallen for Him (MingKit)

Ch# 19 - A mother always know...

...I'm very upset and disappointed at myself.

It's been a week that incident happened and I can't put myself together...

That Mingkwan is an incurable flirty, I knew it from the start. Still, it may have crossed my mind for a brief moment, that spending the day with him wasn't all that bad. But... it turned out that I can't trust myself with him anymore.

' Stop teasing me !'

' ... not this time, P. '

Not only I almost lost myself for a moment there, I also....

' I'm Ming's girlfriend! Nice to meet you, na! '

... I made a fool out of myself.

Sighs*

When Mingkwan started pulling his move on me, I thought he was only going to tease me, like he always does... but, instead... that asshole... he...

Shit.

No matter what I do, I can't get ride off this fucking sensation on my mouth! I have washed it so many times, I forced myself to stop when I found there was no meaning to to it anymore...

Everytime I look at my face, I can't help but feel so annoyed...

I'm so fucking stupid! How could I let Mingkwan have his way like that!

" ... "

Exhale*

... Mingkwan lips on mine felt so smooth, like a dessert you are not prepared to taste, but once you start you just can't stop ... I was so shocked by the contrast between the hotness in my mouth and the cold fingers on my cheeks, that I had no reaction at all. I still remember those eyes, those hipnotizing eyes that fooled me the first time, and at the second, instead of pushing him away, it made me actually let him proceed viciously and slowly, exploring my mouth as he wished...

" ... "

Fuuuuuck! Why am I thinking about it again!!

Whenever Mingkwan looks me in the eyes, I fail to say or do what I want. And so, my first kiss was gone just like that...

Fuck again...

What's wrong with me? I'm not a kid, anymore!

Scratches head*

I keep reminding about it, so I'm frustrated and can't face any of my friends properly, neither can I answer their Lines, or pay attention to anything else in class...

Shit.

It was too late when I came back to my senses back then, but now..

I'll forget about it! It doesn't matter what, I won't make the same mistake again! I have to forget it! I'm done with Mingkwan fooling me around!

We are having a test in a few days, And I need a good score, but it seems I have finally blocked all my capacity to study. If I don't do anything faster, I might be throwing all my effort on this block, away...

Man... what have I been doing...

'Thank you, P! Thanks, for letting me be the one!'