I hate it.
I hat everything about it.
It's ugly.
It's imperfect.
I have to much weight in the wrong spots and not enough weight in the places I want more weight.
Why.
Why can't I just feel confident?
Why is that so hard for me?
There are certain times when I look at myself in the mirror with a certain outfit and I think that I look pretty good.
Then of course someone points something out like my mom.
When she pokes my belly and tells me to suck it in when it is sticking out even the slightest.
My confidence disappears.
When I go out of my normal loose flannel, hoodie, and T-shirt style and I wear something nicer people get surprised, compliment me, or say something mean.
I don't blame them.
I hate my body too.
There's nothing good about it.
I hate my belly worst of all.
I've tried to get rid of the fat.
Because like I said it sticks out of dresses I wear.
But when I do try to work it off I lose weight in the wrong spots.
I hate it.
I'm disgusting.
