Lonely thoughts, I don't know if I'm seeing others views of me or if I'm just feeling depressed.
I've always loved watching movies about love or reading books with beautiful love stories, but for a while now I haven't been able to. Whenever I see a couple or something that reminds of people being in love, I get depressed. I feel that I shouldn't, I should be happy, and feel all warm and fuzzy inside. But I don't. I think of how lonely I am and how much I want to be with someone, then I realize its unrealistic. I want to be loved by someone, but how could someone love a giant girl with an ugly laugh, and a fat face. I just feel worthless, but its not a new feeling, I've felt like this for a long time. I just want someone to think I'm cute, but I'm 5′10 and loud and obnoxious, I want to be seen as beautiful, but how could someone love me when I wear huge sweatshirts to cover everything I hate about my body besides my legs, and face. I want to be seen as confident, but I just end up seeming loud and annoying. No-one want to be with someone who cries in the shower because she's lonely. Nobody wants to be with the fat tall girl, who want to be thinner but doesn't have the will power to stay fit. No one wants the awkward girl, who has anxiety about everything. no one wants the girl who talks about her loneliness online. No one wants the girl behind the keyboard who cries when she realizes she's everything but lovable.
No one wants me. I just don't want to be lonely anymore, I feel like its not much to ask for, but then again I can see where I could change myself to become better.
Im just a lonely girl who is fine everyday, a girl who is surrounded by people, but feels alone all the time.
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Random poetry
PoetryThis is going to be my poetry book where I set whatever poetry I want here. ( rated mature for language, and possible violence)
